lil miss confession

changing lanes

2011-03-30T11:40:00.001+08:00

last year was an amazing year for me
this year is on that ride for a contending participant but there are a few roller-coaster rides for me

but i've come to THE final crossroad
and it's hard to choose between staying on the same land
or leaving to another, unexplored territory

i finally chose,
and it's the LATTER

so from here on out,
Lil Miss Confession is signing out to a whole new unexplored me

@ www.erisha-foo.blogspot.com (over there, i'll give an insight for the reason i'm changing to a new blog)

this blog will remain as a history of archives here, which from time to time, i know i will drop by to reminisce :)
it's been great blogging here all this time!

A Magnolia Sherbet A Day, Drives Us Closer, Each Day!

2011-01-30T19:22:00.001+08:00

This is not a story about a boy and a girl. But this is a story about a sherbet and it's significance to a boy and a girl. This particular sherbet is the latest product of F&N Magnolia, a healthy and fruity excuse for a simple and light ice cream indulgence ;)

To me, personally, this Magnolia Sherbet is more than just a cup of ice cream. And so my story begins...

Once upon a sunny Magnolia day, I walked out of my home to attend to my garden and out of the blue I chance upon a purple cup on my garden table. There was a note attached beside it. Out of curiosity and surprise, I approached the table and read the note.

An adorable note that spelled "Hi!" was taped on the table, next to a cup of F&N Magnolia Sherbet in Melon flavor. The small note made me wonder...

... and the cup of sherbet made me smile. Staring at the cute, purple cup which felt cold against my hand, I decided to try the sherbet out. And so there I was, sitting by the glass table. I opened the cap of the sherbet cup and saw a plastic spoon attached inside and immediately my nostrils were blown away with the sweet smell of melon. Without hesitation, I grab a spoonful of the green colored sherbet and ate.

It was a delightful surprise I must say. The texture of the sherbet was soft and lightly creamy. It tasted exactly as the flavor that was mentioned on the cup. Seriously, it was like a whole melon fruit in a cup that you can easily carry anywhere you go!

The best part was that the sherbet was satisfying til' the very last drop. Not only was it smooth, it melts in your mouth, taste like real fruit and has great chunks of real fruit pieces inside. I fell in love with the sherbet at once!

As I reached the very last scoop from the cup, I wonder what should I do with the cup and the note. I was eager to find out who wrote the note and who gave me the Magnolia Sherbet! In fact, I wanted to ask that person where he or she got the delightful ice cream from.

So I left a note of my own along with the empty cup that spelled "TQ!" and left the patio.

An hour later, I was still thinking about the delicious sherbet and the note. To be honest, I was craving for more of the sherbet since the day was such a sunny day. After much contemplation, I walked out to the patio again.

To my surprise, I chance upon another cup of sherbet but with a different flavor this time. I found myself smiling as I approached the table. Beside the cup, was another note. It spelled: "Try this! It's my favorite :-)"

Now I know that this stranger loves the Orange flavored Magnolia Sherbet. Boy, was I keen on finding out how this one tasted like!

That was just what I did! The moment I opened the cap, I smelled the sweet and tangy smell of fresh oranges and immediately I imagined fresh, round oranges floating in the air :-)

The sherbet was amazing. Just like the Melon flavored one, this orange flavored sherbet tasted exactly like zesty oranges. The sherbet melt in my mouth with every spoonful and tickle my taste buds. I found myself smiling...

...yet wondering again who was it that left this cup of sherbet and the note on my garden table. It took me awhile as I was absorbed into my own puzzlement. As I snapped back, I realized my Orange Sherbet had melted halfway. But I shrugged it off and started slurping the sherbet from the cup itself. It was heavenly wonderful!!!! :-D

Well...well... what do you know? Magnolia's sherbet still is a perfect indulgence whether you eat it by spoon or whether you slurp through the cup! So it really doesn't matter if the sherbet has melted or not. There's no regrets!!

Satisfied and happy, I left the empty cup again with another note that spelled: "Love it! :-) You've got great taste in ice creams".

A couple of hours later...

...I walked out to the patio again to water the plants in the garden when I chance upon another cup of sherbet in Lychee flavor plus another new note beside it!! But then my eyes caught a movement that took place further in front and to my shock, I saw something!!!

There he was. The stranger that has been leaving behind all this cups of Magnolia Sherbet and the notes!

This time, I was glad that I caught him before he managed to climb back over to the next house. So he's my neighbor after all!

I crept behind him as he was struggling to climb over the wall and stretched out my arm. I didn't want him to leave. So I tapped on his shoulder...

...and it gave him a shock! He turned around, surprise to have been caught by me.

As the Lychee Sherbet rest in my grip and the note in the other hand, I smiled at him and said "Hi!"

Excited, I asked him to stay and join me for a cup of sherbet. My neighbor, he smiled, and took out another cup of sherbet out of his left pocket. It was a different flavor than the ones that I ate and the one that I was holding in my hand.

So, there on the table, were two cups of Magnolia Sherbet. One in Lychee flavor and the other in Mangosteen flavor. Both packed in a cup that definitely will not fail to tempt you to try the sherbet out!

As we sat together by the glass table, he had a cup of Mangosteen Sherbet and I enjoyed a cup of Lychee Sherbet. Believe it or not when I say that even on my third cup of Magnolia Sherbet that day, I wanted more and more. It was a great crave :-)

Check out the Mangosteen Sherbet. I love the dual colored swirls in the cup. How can this not be tempting to you? I'm sure that as I've been telling you this story, your mouth has been salivating and you've been eager to try this new sherbet out, haven't you?!

Thus, as we both ate and enjoyed the ice creams. We got to know each other and we were both smiling all the way. Not only because we've finally shared some time to get to know each other better and made friends, we also had the opportunity to enjoy such a delightful pick-me-up on a sunny day by the garden.

Finally, as we were halfway through our sherbets, he asked me: "Which is your favorite flavor?"

I looked at him in the eye and as I smiled, I said: "Let me try something first".

I took his cup of Mangosteen Sherbet, scooped a spoonful and then I took a spoonful from the Lychee Sherbet. Simultaneously, I put both spoons in my mouth and enjoyed the burst of both flavors. Smiling in glee, I gave him both the cups and urged him to do the same.

As I saw the delightedness on his face as he put both the spoons in his mouth, I said: "Why choose a particular favorite flavor when I actually love them all four?!"

At the end of the ice cream eating session, we both got to know our names and it is safe to say that from that day onwards, we both still enjoy a cup of Magnolia sherbet a day...sometimes two! Grateful for F&N Magnolia's greatest new creation, Magnolia Sherbet has driven us both closer together, each day :-D

As I come to the end of this story of mine, let me share with you a secret of mine about F&N Magnolia Sherbets.

This great and delicious sherbet comes in four different flavors: Melon, Lychee, Orange and Mangosteen.

Til' this very day, I can never choose only one flavor from the collection of sherbets. Magnolia's sherbet taste so lovely individually that they each go so well even when eaten together!

Don't believe me? Try it for yourself! The burst of two flavors simultaneously in your mouth is like being on cloud 9!

That is why Kevin and I share this special Magnolia moment everytime we have a cup of the sherbets. He'd buy a flavor and I'd buy another flavor. Together, we share both flavors at a time :-)

Psst: If you want to grab your hands on all four, check out for your nearest selected outlets that sells Magnolia Sherbets here.

A Magnolia Sherbet A Day, Drives us Closer, Each Day!

Specially to all friends, families and special ones out there.

-THE END-

Anticipation

2011-01-22T00:17:00.000+08:00

by LMC

tick tock tick tock…
she waits in anticipation…

tick tock tick tock…
a look of eagerness on her expression…

tick tock tick tock…
she lets her emotions run wild
but amidst all that
adrenaline running a course under
layers of skin that wraps a child

a summer’s breeze sweeps pass her
the corner of her lips curve upwards
as a familiar gaze meets hers
thus she knows the whirlwind of emotions continues
til the next time their eyes signs his presence

c'est la vie

2011-01-09T14:32:00.001+08:00

happy 2011 sexy(s)!!!!!!!!!

time flew and such is life

there's going to be some changes taking place around here...

...and faraway

so for now...

make 2011 your sexiest year ever because we don't know what will happen in 2012 [:-O]

& might i interest you in some life-size bites?

...:::dazed daisies:::...

What's your problem, HATERS?

2010-11-05T22:32:00.001+08:00

I've been back on my blog-reading and blog-hopping these few days and I'm speechless at the amount of haters issue going around in the blogosphere; AGAIN!

I just don't get it... What's with all the hatred?

Yeah, yeah, I know that not a single person on this planet can get everyone to like them. Especially when you're famous, well-known, genius or just plain talented, there are bound to be haters out there who find means to criticize you down. I'd say, all these comes partially from jealousy. Or perhaps the fact that they're just not talented enough that they have to use this method to get fame - by publicly criticizing and humiliating celebrity bloggers/youtubers/writers/etc etc...

I mean, yeah, you have your own say and you have your own right and choice to speak your mind but then again the one thing that I still don't get it is why bother visiting the public figure's blog, social network pages and/or watch their videos if you hate them so much?

If you really can't stand them or if you really, really hate them, stop going back to their space. Stop watching their videos or stop reading their blogs. But, NO! You'll dedicate your time (seriously, I wonder if it's the fact that you're so lifeless, you just have to do all these at home?) to check out what's the latest blog post, pictures or videos of these bloggers/youtubers that you hate so much and then build/visit a forum or website dedicated to throw hurtful and vindictive comments and insults for God knows whatever satisfaction you derive!!!

Honestly speaking, if I hate a blogger, a blog, a video, etc... I would just click the "X" symbol on the top right of my browser and never look back. Yeah, I might have a nasty opinion in my mind once or twice, but that's just human nature, our perception and our own freedom or thoughts. But I don't go to great lengths to have a forum or website dedicated to publicly despise that person. What do I get in return?
I have a life to live, mind you.

source: joemanna

FYI, going to great lengths to criticize these online, public figures is not a competition that you have to win to show that you're someone, because frankly, most of you HATERS are cowards because most of you are anonymous. So how do you get famous from there, I have no idea?

Frankly, it doesn't show how smart you are either because what it shows is that you're lifeless, lame, obsessive and pretty much stupid. No, I'm not kidding. Can some of you read what you wrote in the attempts to criticize these people? Trust me, your hate comments can really be stupid at times just because, in actual fact, you don't have anything to criticize on.

Pffttt... I think it's got to do with the money, doesn't it?
I have no idea that there are "people" in this world who have no proper values in their life that they have to resort to HATERS club/forum/website to get hits and make money. WOW! The amount of genius you bunch of haters have, I practically salute *sarcasm mode*

source: google images

P/S: If you haters don't already know, you guys are part of the reason why the people you all hate, are still getting hits everyday, if not increasing in fame due to your silly, lifeless behaviors. Perhaps with all that free time you guys have, I suggest that you all do something valuable or useful - like attending a "How to find your wisdom 101" course.

Trick or Treat

2010-10-31T17:02:00.002+08:00

And yet again, I've been away for too long. I've been to busy with a lot of things at hand and when I'm not, I've been so busy being lazy. I wonder how diligent bloggers do it out there. A post every other day in a week.

I guess that'll never be me. So anyway, HAPPY HALLOWEEN EVERYONE!!!

My wish is for all of you to have your bones scared out of ya! After all, it's Halloween ain't it? I had a great Halloween night on Friday and this year I went as a cowgirl. Something old, something borrowed, something blue. (LOL! Now that's an old wedding tradition) But yeah, I bought nothing for Halloween this year. Proves that you don't have to spend a fortune just to dress up in a costume.

For those of you girls who treat Halloween as a nice excuse to dress all slutty, I am indeed, very jealous. THAT'S IT! I'm going as a Victoria Secret model next year. I have about a year to "fix" my body up to look good and win that dang "Sexiest Costume Award".

No, seriously, I was just poking fun at the sluts. But hey, by all means, it's a costume so wear and be whatever you want kay...

Before I sign off, let me know what's your costume this year?
How much have you spent for your costume? Or what's the scariest shit you've ever experienced in your life?

Mine?
I answered the first 2 questions earlier and my answer for the final question is....GETTING TO KNOW YOU!

HAH! Just kidding, I'm not always that mean and cynical *wink*

i think i made a mistake of writing this post

2010-09-26T01:04:00.001+08:00

Normally, I wouldn't blog a post that describes my daily, mundane bore-fest but today I'm gonna make an exception. This weekend isn't turning out to be what I've expected. As compared to weekend away last weekend, this weekend is pretty much screwed up. I should have seen it coming since I had a meltdown on a supposedly TGIF friday night, which was ridiculously retarded to say the least.

Now, I've got a retarded-acting nose that couldn't stop sneezing since yesterday to match up with my already retarded attitude the previous night. A relaxing weekend came to a halt when you have a bitch nagging at the back of your head, telling you that you're not doing this right and you're forgetting about this and that or that you have a bunch of unmotivated workload to attend to. Then, finally you realize that nagging bitch was just a figment of your retarded imagination.

Did I mention how much I hate being sick? I turn into a whiny bitch and when it comes to explaining my symptoms of "illness" to the people around me, I turn on the "drama queen" mode. It's ridiculous. Again, the retardation, what can I say? Worst part is, my boyfriend is not feeling well and it's been a week already, which worries me but I just don't say it out because I don't want to stress him up further.

I know Mr. Monday comes right after the weekends along with it's monday blues but I can't help but wish monday would arrive so I can get through this weekend already. Perhaps a new week is what I need to not fall into the mental retardation category (yet I'm a Psych major, the irony of it). Speaking of which, that means Tuesday is just nearby, hugging hands with Monday and I don't think I can take the much unwanted stress Tuesday is about to bring me because of my defense meeting with my supervisors.

Who wants to cheer me up?

she who is the tough cookie that got moist

2010-09-23T19:25:00.001+08:00

Haven't people learn by now that there is the word don't in the phrase 'don't judge a book by it's cover'? Perhaps not? Perhaps people enjoy being noobs?

I know as a person, I put up a tough exterior in public. Anybody and even nobodies tend to think that I'm one tough cookie because I always act like I don't give a damn about what people think or say about me or that I wear the "anger and frustration" pendant more days than "sad and vulnerable" like it's my lucky charm.

But didn't the thought that perhaps I just try to put a strong front, publicly because it is my external, number 1 shield but inside, the things you, him, her or they do, actually eats me up?

Just because a person seem oblivious to her surroundings or just because I don't sulk over at a corner after a bad day or two doesn't mean I don't feel unhappiness or pain. A tough cookie ain't always tough even though it seems to be on the outside...once in a while...moist seeps in and that so-called toughness crumbles down to cookie bits and pieces.

Perhaps I should stop acting tough and start showing vulnerability? Maybe that's easier for those who are cognitively challenged.

Sex Sells

2010-09-08T18:24:00.000+08:00

Romance used to be on the edge and then it got overrated and got kick off the edge. Right now, in the 21st century, sex climbed over, dominated and overruled the generation, won and is making profit.

That's right! Sex sells...and you and I know it!

credits to Lover'sLoveLife

The media knows it and that's how they garner public interest. Out of millions of stories a day, if a sex scandal present, it'll sit at the top chart of "Top News to Publish".

Sex appeal overruled other advertising appeals in many product or service campaigns. Check out your latest perfume or car ads, you'd get the drift.

What about visual entertainment? Check out popularity ratings of Sex and The City or Mad Men. How about some True Blood?

Now why did I say that romance got kicked off the edge?
Because artists and producers jump on the sex appeal bandwagon to keep up with the trend. Explicit contents are no longer only on media, books, magazines and visual entertainments, but has now taken over the audio biz too. Gone will be the days when lyrics chant "everlasting love" or "my love for you is forever" and start ~~humping~~ humming the ears of listeners with "sex" or anything related to that. Don't forget songs that are meant to be on love or relationships but has videos displaying otherwise instead just to sell!

Don't believe me?
Listen to these...

Now, the question is what's next? Where will Ms/Mr. Sex Appeal dominate next?

LMC's Guide To Sem-Break Holidays!

2010-09-04T23:14:00.000+08:00

How fast did time fly by?

I can't believe my 7 weeks of semester break just came and gone in a blink of an eye-yai-yai (sigh).
I miss the holidays. In fact, I wish I could just make a living out of experiencing holidays :)

What can I say?

Everybody loves to get paid for doing nothing but enjoying what they like best.

Here's a couple of photos from some great fun I had during my last few semester breaks:

Port Dickson

PD & Melaka Town

Genting

Felda Hot Springs

Kuala Selangor Firefly Park

Kanching Waterfalls

Cycling Session @ Shah Alam

How was your own semester break holidays?

Well now, for those of you who are whining about having no money or resources whatsoever to travel the world for holidays, here is LMC's Guide To Holidaying in Malaysia itself!

If you wish to go for a weekend or 2-3 days getaway from the city:
1) Local beaches here ain't so bad at all. You just gotta take your pick. Here's LMC's pick:

Redang - one of the best beaches in Malaysia & also the most expensive. But if you've the money to splurge, then this is a great paradise.
Tioman - another really awesome local island that offers a bunch of great beaches. I'd say this is the next best thing :) [Both Tioman & Redang provides the option for you to travel by Berjaya Air]
Perhentian - Off the coast of Terengganu
Langkawi - the main of other smaller islands that are a must-go; must-see; must experience
Pangkor - Off the coast of Perak
Sipadan - in Sabah; one of the best diving island in Malaysia
Kapas - Popular for it's budget accommodations & snorkeling
Layang-layang - a diver's paradise!
Port Dickson - a small, budget island. Great with lots of seafood
Cherating - A laid-back budget island near Kuantan

2) Head to great states in other areas of Malaysia. LMC recommends:

Penang - awesome for food and nightlife too. Plus awesome heritage to soak in! Khoo Kongsi & Georgetown areas [Hotels]
Melaka - another place for awesome food. Check out heritages & Portugese/ Baba Nyonya food & heritage. Must visit Heeren and Jonker streets. [Hotels]
Sabah - awesome wildlife, rainforest and nature. Maybe try climbing Mount Kinabalu for you adventure-seekers. [Hotels]
Sarawak - Soak in the cultures of Sarawak with Sarawak Cultural Village in Santubong & Miri's Gunung Mulu National Park. [Hotels]

Now if you wish to save up money and wish to choose for one day trips/activities to do, here are some ideas:

1) Picnics and outdoor adventure at waterfalls. Check out this site for the list of waterfalls available in Malaysia. But here's a few pointers when you're there:

Check out reviews any waterfalls you wish to go to and find out how is the place, what are there and so on.
Bring extra clothes and wear easy to walk shoes which gives you ease and grip.
Have breakfast before you go because some waterfalls have huge groups of wild monkeys and bringing excessive food may be dangerous.
If you do want to bring light food, make sure foods don't have strong odor or aroma. Do not put food in plastic bags, paper bags or baskets. This attract monkeys. Carry backpacks and put food in lunch-boxes in the bag.
Bring mosquito repellent.
Prepare to hike a little or walk through jungle trails.
Don't go during raining seasons.

2) Have fun at hot springs:

3) Go cycling or jogging and check out nature at Bukit Cahaya Shah Alam or Taiping's Lake Garden (Perak) or Seremban's Lake Garden or KL's The Lake Gardens (Taman Tasik Perdana)

4) See fireflies at Kuala Selangor / Kampung Kuantan

Have you had a conversation with a machine?

2010-09-03T00:05:00.003+08:00

Well a couple of days back, I woke up to a morning of ZERO internet connection. Apparently my wifi decided to play "peekaboo" with me and so all laptops were not able to detect my house connection except for...small devices such as my handphone and my iTouch.

Boy, were there frustrations!

And so that day I had a couple of conversations with an "operator" from UniFi:

*dialing tone*

Machine: Welcome to UniFi...bla bla bla bla etc etc... For bla bla bla, press 1...
*pressed 1*

Machine: For bla bla bla press 1, for bla bla bla press 2...
*pressed 2*

*dialing tone*
Machine: Your call will be attended shortly.
*annoying on hold background music that is assumed to be entertaining while being forced to wait*

2 minutes later
Machine: Our customer service operators are currently unavailable. Your call is very important to us at UniFi, please hold and your call will be attended shortly.
*same annoying on hold background music*

1 minute later
Machine: Our customer service operators are currently unavailable. Your call is very important to us at UniFi, please hold and your call will be attended shortly.
*same annoying on hold background music*

After 45 minutes of waiting and trying, still nothing. Call ended.

Few minutes later, connection was detected.

It's amazing how effective the machine was as an "operator"! I got my connection back in 45 minutes even without having to say anything. WOW

A Malaysian's ludicrous comment

2010-08-21T23:10:00.000+08:00

Just this week I went to the movies and watched The Expendables. Golly! Boy, was I excited to watch some action-packed and testosterone-filled movie where they big boys are given excuses to play with their big toys ;) Might I add: hunky big boys?

So there I was, sitting in the cinema hall, being rather early this time round since there weren't any trailers on the screen yet. Despite the small hall in Cathay, I'd always love their comfortable red seats.

Anyway a couple of minutes later, trailers started to screen and a bunch of, well let me put it this way, Malaysian guys came and sat right next to the left of me. There was this one trailer on an upcoming, new chinese action movie playing on the screen. To be honest, I'm not a huge fan of Hong Kong movies nor do I actually like their action movies. They're just not my cup of tea and they're not something I'd look forward to watch either.

Now right after that particular trailer ended, a comment from the immediate left came saying: "Chinese movies are really full of nonsense". Now this comment wasn't in English. Nor were they in Tamil or Chinese because I wouldn't understand a thing they guy said, if that were to be the case. Thus, I've translated the comment to English since all my blog posts are written in English and so the exact impact or spot-on meaning of what he exactly said wasn't fully described.
So immediately after that stereotypic comment, I was rather perplexed. No, I wasn't offended or anything like that, just to be clear!

Yes, I was rather perplexed and it got me thinking...

" If you think chinese movies are really so nonsensical, have you taken a look at most of our country's own production? "

I mean seriously...especially so-called failed attempts of comedies and action-thrill ones! Of course there are good productions in Malaysia but those handful ones can really be counted on my two bare hands.

Now the thing was that, it got me thinking that way because of the way he had commented. It was as if the movie was in a form of language that he most probably did not understand and that it was rather comically lame at various scenes shown in the trailer, which made him utter the comment out loud.

So that was that. I then went on to be somewhat bemused towards the fact that a Malaysian could criticized a generalized statement about chinese movies but looked passed the fact that Malaysian movies are just the same, or maybe even worst.

Reasons you should go vacation in Abu Dhabi

2010-08-15T20:10:00.000+08:00

Sex in the City 2 made me fall in love with Abu Dhabi!

Well, before I got myself to watching the movie today, I've always wanted to go to Abu Dhabi. In fact, after the movie, I immediately fell in love with that place and it will remain as one of the top cities to visit before I die!!!

In the midst of all the love affair, I went on to Google Abu Dhabi and now I shall tell you a couple of reasons why you should make this city your next vacation paradise. I'll start off by showing you...

...this:

Abu Dhabi's Palace

Night view of Emirates Palace Hotel - credit: dubaiinternetmarketing

Whole front view of Emirates Palace - credit: oursurprisingworld

Yes! The mother of all hotels in Abu Dhabi! The exquisite Emirates Palace. My jaw practically dropped when I saw this hotel. But of course, it will take me eternal slavery to be able to accommodate in this princess. But then again, I could probably start selling precious rubies and I'll find myself living my life in there ;)

Middle Eastern cuisines

Credit: my foodilicious

Credit: menumag

I'm always a fan of flavorful palates and spice :) Thus, I'm all in for some Middle Eastern food. Mmmm... the spice, the unique colors and flavors, the juicy meat and appealing combination of east and west. What more than to indulge in the country that eats off middle eastern cuisines?

Abu Dhabi beaches

Credits: Jon Rawlinson

Credit: travel journal

Who loves serene, white and sandy beaches? Abu Dhabi has one of the best beaches as one of their city's main attractions. Love the city, love the beaches! I, for one, am a sucker for beaches and clear ocean ;) Best part is, you can go Dhow Cruising!!!!!

Abu Dhabi Desert

Credit: ahlanlive

Desert experiences!!!!

I have always wanted to step food in the desert and go for camel rides!!! And this is a place to do just that.

Abu Dhabi architecture

Credit: blogs.weyak

Credit: max4project

Credit: accardia

Known as one of the most modern cities in the world, Abu Dhabi features an array of stunningly, gorgeous architectures (as seen above). Sightseeing will absolutely be captivating. Not to forget their areas and buildings of heritage as well as the modern skyscrapers!

And for the ladies:

Imagine a beautiful place that gives you a reason to adorn pretty trinkets and long, flowy dresses!! It gives you the perfect excuse to wear wind blowing attires, gorgeous colored dresses, scarves and bangles. Just be mindful to respect their culture and not be too revealing.

Another for the ladies!

The Abu Dhabi Shopping Festival which happens every March!!! *i hear feminine squeals and a couple of gay cheers as well*

Credit: visitabudhabi

More? Shop marketplaces (souks) in Abu Dhabi for bargains - spices, apparels, scarves, shoes, perfumes & even gold.

And there you have it...
So will someone, anyone, sponsor me an ALL EXPENSES PAID trip to Abu Dhabi?

shake that misery of a company of yours and put on the awesome shirt

2010-08-04T22:42:00.003+08:00

Well, lookie at what we have here? A first post from our new contributor :)

Why hello there!! (If you have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about, read the previous post)
He's new people, so be nice and don't bite.

So anyway, I'm rather bittersweet about the fact that Machines is replacing my iTouch with a brand new one because of a hardware problem. It's great that I'm getting a totally brand new one but then again I'm so attached to my original, old one and not forgetting the fact that all my notes inside are now all GONE!!! These notes aren't just notes, okay? There are sentimental values... notes where money can't buy em' all back. Such a bummer.

Oh well, shit happens. Which brings me to the fact that there are friends of mine who are experiencing major/slight bumps in their life right now. In other words, life for them has met with a dead end and so they have no directions to choose from. Besides friends, there are a couple of people I know, not personally, who I shall term as blogger buddies or just random people I know of but may not know me, who are going through similar rough patches. And so this blog post is specially dedicated to you darlings. If you happen to be reading this and you find yourself fitting the bill here, this is for you too.

I know at times or perhaps for some of you, life hits you in the face with dirty old sour lemons and they bite (real hard that is) and it hurts. There are times when you'd go: "enough is enough!!" and then there are times when you see that things just don't seem to get better and all you can do is go: LIFE SUCKS!
Yeah, life does suck at times and if I were to one of those idiots who keep telling you "oh well, life sucks", you'd probably want to smack me on my face right now because I'm sure you already know this so saying it again is not going to help...I know.

So instead, I've got a list of other things that I will tell you that some other idiots probably will not ( I said some, not all).

1. Stop beating yourself up for any mistakes you've done/have not done but you think you were to be blamed. Do you want to stay miserable for the rest of your life? It's OK to feel guilty and terrible for a while for what you've done but beating yourself up for the rest of your life ain't gonna cut it because doing so will not make things better or erase whatever that has already been done.

If it's not your fault, why go through shit to make yourself feel bad? You have to come to terms with the event and there is a difference between the former and the latter.

2. Stop blaming others.

People make mistakes. Have you ever made mistakes in your life? People will always pay for what wrong they've done, eventually, so live your life because there is so much more to life than just tormenting others who have crossed your path wrongly as well as tormenting yourself for having such hatred and dislike towards others.

Which would you prefer: To seek happiness and strength with people who deserve you/love you OR to be vengeful and let misery be your company from all the blaming and tormenting? An event in your life has already make a part of your life suck, so why would you want to make the rest of your remaining life suck even more...

3. Don't be in denial and suppress the painful memories/terrible emotions.

Because trust me, it will bite you back even harder in the guts and in the place in you that you call 'sanity'. Accept what's what and talk about it. Express how you feel, albeit healthily. If you need a helping hand to cope, by all means go get one. If you need a shoulder to cry on, go ahead and wet those kind shoulders you've found.

If you think crying and expressing pain is a sign of a weakness, remember that you've cried at least once in your life and you will feel pain at least once in your life. If that's not enough, remember that you're not immortal (if you are, you shouldn't even need to be here in the 1st place) and you'll die someday so who gives a shit whether you show any sign of weakness or not, everyone has got their own problems to deal with that is much more 'life & death' matter than the fact that you're weak just coz you cried!

4. If you gotta release your anger, DO IT!

Yeah, at times you just need to release that build up emotion in you so you'll feel better. Just don't hurt anyone in the process. Need to shout, go wind down the window shields of your car while you're driving and scream. Go to the top of the hill and shout. Get a dummy or even better, a willing friend for you to verbally abuse and scream at the top of your lungs (they just gotta know you're not directing anything personal to them, it's just a symbolic act). Smack the pillow. Get into a pillow fight! (even better and you'll find yourself laughing in the end)

5. Be realistic.

Your problems ain't the worst in this world. Just because your problem is...YOURS, doesn't mean it's the mother of all problems. And don't think as if it's the end of the world. Read up or look at how much other people who are suffering worst than you do cope with theirs and strive to break free from their misery.

6. Get motivated/inspired.

Read inspiring and motivating real-life stories or listen to inspiring/motivational stories of others who have got it worst than you do but still manage to live their lives as if everything is filled with beds of roses.

7. Go get a hug.

From your lover, your family or your friend(s). Hugs are nice and they make you feel safe and alright. It's a temporary 'awwww' feeling and a temporary feel good moment. When you're at ease from the stress that any problems are giving you, you're able to be rational and think clearly. You never know, you might find a resolution or two.

8. LAUGH!!!

By any means necessary, make yourself laugh. Laughter is the best medicine and this is true. Same as hugs, laughter will make you feel better. Sometimes (this may sound weird but can work for some), just believe that something is funny or (better yet) warped your problems into something that is comical or believe that you're laughing, and you'll find yourself really laughing at the end. After all, in time to come, when this problem is your history, you'd look back at it and laugh at it anyway.

9. Listen.

When someone is trying to help you cope and perk you up, just listen! Don't fall into the "nothing is gonna make me feel better or make anything better ever again" nonsense. You're born with ears for a reason.

10. Vandalize post-its and markers.

Or perhaps any tools to leave/scribble reminders or notes around for your benefit. Tell yourself how awesome you are. Tell yourself your areas of strengths. Remind yourself how awesome other parts of your life are or anyone awesome that you have in your life (who you know you always can rely on/make you feel your best).

11. Give me a call. Or find any other way to reach out to me and I will tell you how awesome you are as a person in this whole, huge universe. ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

Some Days...

2010-08-01T21:16:00.010+08:00

Ahh..New look for d blog…me likey! …a fresh n cheery new look compared to the previous dark and sultry look ( don’t get me wrong…the earlier one was nice too…kinda sexay..but I guess people change and this in turn causes their likes to change and I believe evry’thing happens for the better)… , but yeah I love this brand new look!

Hey, first I would like to introduce myself …my name is Kevin and I’m a new contributor to this blog. I didn’t have a clue on what to start writing on this blog until I saw this picture…haha…very interesting right…especially to the Guys ( yeah man…! *bumps fist*)

SOME DAYS - They just start better than others…

Quite nice…aint’ it …but how we wish that everyday would be like that…not exactly what the picture is depicting but rather correspond to the actual meaning to the saying below…, ("but I really wouldn’t mind what the picture exemplify actually”…haha :p …ok ok back 2 d story…"), A wake to a new day with no remorse or worries of negative previous or past events but just feeling, ah…. so easy and light… livin’ the day free to the will and anticipation…how wonderful it would be…it would make so much difference to our daily life…

But that made me thinking...

But I guess life’s not like that …. Every ups and downs that we feel shapes our life…it gives meaning to our living. Imagine a static life full of only happiness ….without hardship and sorrow…this would cause an imbalance to our emotional experience and no cause to our existence... We’d be no different than programmed robots doing the same thing and receiving the same rewards day after day. Hmmm…I guess that wouldn't make life…Life!.

This reminds me of a saying:

“If we could go back in time and change ourselves, we would. But then we wouldn't be ourselves, would we?"

Think about it yeah…

To end it off…I would like to bid u guys to “Ave’ A Good Day…!” :)

<--Kevin out -->

"Things That'll Irritate Me W/o Fail"

2010-07-30T14:16:00.007+08:00

I'm pretty sure everyone has things in life that they can't (and when I say can't, I mean for their love of life, they CAN'T) possibly tolerate/live with. I know I have a couple of things that, without fail, will irritate the living hell out of me. But then again, some of these things are tolerable than others.

Bad customer service!

I know for a fact that almost everyone can't stand bad customer service. I mean c'mon... who does right? But to me, it is highly a must to have good customer service. If I enter a restaurant for the first time and the customer service sucks like nobody's business, the management will either hear a sharp complaint from me or will never see the sight of me in that place ever again. Not to forget that a whole new grapevine will take place and news will pass through word of mouth about how bad the service is. Trust me, these days services are getting from bad to worse.

Using the same cutleries and/or plates and bowls for different dishes

Yeah some of you may think this is weird but I just can't stand this. I can never use the same fork or spoon when eating different dishes and will always try whatever way I can to get clean ones for each serving of dishes. If I ain't got the choice, I'd clean the cutleries with napkins or paper towels first or just choose not to eat the other dish. Yeah I know the logic isn't there because afterall the food will all end up mixed in my digestive system but I still hate it. Even my boyfriend thinks I'm weird this way!

People who take the entire century to get back to my calls or text messages and I think this is nuff' said.

When the toilet seat is not cleaned up after usage and not flushed. (everyone except those who are of the disgusting canine sorts will probably feel the same way about this)

People who are constantly whiny and seeks attention through freakishly shouting like a hyena.

I have a message for you if you constantly do this: The attention you get is of the negative sort and people hate you for what you've done. So cut the crap will ya? And all that whining isn't gonna change/make things better so just shut up, thank you very much. My ears are pleased and happy :)

People who don't wear deodorant

They'd go: I don't need to... I don't have BO.

Well newsflash honey: Everyone has their own natural BO and the only difference is if the intensity is so bad that it smells real bad. Plus, you may think you don't but then again only others can really smell your BO but they're just too nice and don't want to avoid the awkward moment of confronting you. So, get a deodorant and just spray/swipe on. it's so simple. Plus, even if you don't have a strong BO, deodorant helps to eliminate that ugly sweat patch you got from sweating like a pig (which a lot of us can't help it because it's a natural body process)

Don't ever talk too much or disturb me when I'm all stressed up unless you want to get snapped at

Sorry!!! It's not your fault but I tend to be sooooooooooo snappy and cranky when I'm all stressed up

Burping out loud

Please don't ever do that in my face or I'll slap the crap out of you. Nah... I'm just kidding. No slapping involved. Just say excuse me, will ya? Pretty please my dear! :)

Deliberately farting out loud in my face

This... hmmm.. slapping might be involved :) Haha... nah just kidding. I don't think so. Unless you deliberately sat on my face and fart. YUCK!

Smoking in front of me when I am still eating and drinking

I already hate it if you blow puffs of cig smoke directly at my direction at any times. But if it's when I'm eating & drinking, I can't stand it so for the sake of your "beautiful face", don't do it in front of me when I'm eating. Not only will all that smoking kill you. My curses and "sweet" glare will speed up the killing process ;)

BIMBO-NESS *fullstop*

Speaking on the phone like some chinese Ah Beng

*imagine loud annoying voice* OI! I TELLS U AH DON'T TALK SO THE EFFIN' THE LOUD AH.. WHATS?? DON'T KNOWS WHATTHE I'M TOKKING? EHS WHY SO THE AH BENG ONE U! NO NO NO... CANNOT LAH CANNOT LAH.. NO LAH.. HAHH!!!! AIYOO.. I TELLS YOU CANNOT LA %^#%$%$$%%$@@@&%%#

Geddit??

If you like to make pre-assumptions all the time, then I hate your guts to the core

Ok, I don't hate you per se but I might. Or something like that. No but seriously I don't get it man! I know people can't live without gossiping but why must you start accusing others based on your flimsy and immature pre-assumptions? it's freaking annoying can? Would you like it if people do that to you? Don't say you don't give a shit because deep down you do and somehow it will poke whichever spare fats you have so don't be in denial and stop being baboon. TQVM

blah blah blah I'm gonna stop here right now because I am rather irritated right now from a 100 attack of questions. Yeah I just get to irritated when you ask me a whole bunch of irritating nonsensical questions like a thousand shots of bullets attacking me all at once. So I'm out of here.

other side

2010-07-26T17:11:00.002+08:00

Welcome to the bright side now, honey :)

Glad you finally came out of the dark...

post it love

2010-07-02T10:23:00.004+08:00

In the midst of all the assignment rush yesterday...

You came and made my day...

It was a sheer surprise & a wonderful, sweet gesture

You're the sweetest :)

wave your flag, but don't shove it in my face every nanosecond you've got

2010-06-30T01:59:00.002+08:00

what i'm going to say right after this will probably make you go: owh c'mon, we all know that!
so here it goes - so we all know it's the world cup season right now (WC).
it is everything that all the football fanatics will think, dream, eat, walk, sleep, breathe about.
it's everywhere that it's like a "must" to somehow or in someway be involved in it/get associated with it. (which is the purpose of this post, which you will come to realize any moment from now)

don't try to deny that it's not a fever spreading all over the world - bringing people together (or at some point breaking people apart because i know some people can really take it seriously when it comes to dotdotdot VS. dashdashdash) & creating an epidemic that will only die down once the virus (WC) is over.
(on second thought i think a little hangover will start to kick-in first before it actually dies down completely)

words like spain, germany, brazil, argentina, portugal, england, "GOAL!!!" and more "goaaaaaaaall!!" replace usual, everyday vocabs. songs like shakira's addictive & sexy "waka waka" will drown many ears and take over many planets called ipods. even social networking sites like facebook and social platforms like twitter gets flooded with updates on daily games and scores as they slowly take up the duty of daily newscasters and sports sections in the paper. the "best" part is, even people who are generally not a fan of football prior to this WC fever, starts "watching" and get all "hyped up" by posting updates of each game within nanoseconds. thank you for shedding light to the world that you're a person worth noticing just because you publicize non-stop about your act of being in the now-crowd.

heck, even true footie fans don't update as much as you bunch of so-called "fans" do. i just don't get it!!?!?!?!! what are you trying to prove? because as far as logic goes, true footie fans already know the scores and what's going on in the games so they don't need immediate updates while non-footie fans don't give two hoots about them. then there's the non-footie fans that are hyped-to-join-in-the-footie-fun-just-for-the-fun-of-it who watch, enjoy but don't go spamming every single social platform they've sign up for - they're fine. i ain't talking about them.

so yeah, why again? what are you trying to achieve...yes you... if you find yourself guilty of the charges laid out above. do you derive pleasure from all that spamming? do you get the attention needed, the ones that you're looking for from selective individuals? are you trying to impress someone?
i ain't stating that what you're doing is wrong...i'm just curious...just like how you're just "spamming for the fun of it" :)

depth is not by length

2010-06-25T23:15:00.001+08:00

I've always believed that it is not about how long you know a person; instead it is about how much you know about a person. That is what that serves as a mean to gauge how intimate you are with a person in your life. Heck, you may know someone for years (eg: since elementary school) but the amount of intimate information that you both share during that length of your relationship expresses the depth of your relationship. Or you may know your parents since the day you were born but if the relationship you share with your parents is a *glance-at-your-face-everyday-because-i-live-under-the-same-roof*, then it is not going to point that you have a close tie with them.

That is why I always believe that it is much more significant when it comes to how much you know about a person rather than the length of your acquaintance. But then again, that's just one of my many own thoughts, which you may or may not share with.

a tornado attack of thoughts

2010-06-13T23:14:00.002+08:00

Gosh, I expected workload to be a real pain the ass this semester (well, it's a really painstakingly short one, if you must know). But I didn't expect it to be THIS PAIN. Now my butt figuratively hurts! :'(
Anyhoo, I was merely illustrating the reason behind my absence at this blog of mine. So called diligence, huh?

I've been meaning to really really put myself in front of Blogger and continue the story of "let magic work it's way" & "raw childhood fears" but there's always a B.U.T!! I bet many of you have already given up... but you know what? Even so, I still would really love to end those two bits, regardless.

Why?

Because I don't want my list of "Things I've Completed Halfway" to grow even longer than it already is :(
I keep telling myself that but then nothing seems to give me that extra push to go that extra mile. Not until today when I arrived home to a huge chunk of metal scrap on right outside my neighbor's house; just opposite mine. Trees around the neighborhood has broken branches. And my house welcomed me with a dark smile because the power went off and the only thing giving out light amid corners of this place I call home were the lighted candles.

What a news I got upon entering mi casa. Apparently a "tornado attack" occurred just a few minutes before I arrived back and the awning from a house a couple of rows back (it was pretty far away) came flying all the way and landed right in front of the house opposite mine.

The next thing I know, what my Mum said send shivers down my spine...
I was lucky that I arrived home a couple of minutes later and not sooner. Because if I were to be at the spot where the boyfriend dropped me off just now, that awning could have flew over to the car and anything could have taken place. Now, that was some scary shit!!!

I guess a stroll by the park; admiring and envying adorable puppies of rich Malaysian citizens wasn't such a bad idea?

Hence, I wouldn't say that I had a moment of disbelief which came on to a sudden determination...but I've decided that from today on, I want to push harder to go that extra mile longer to finish what I've started (be it anything) and to see things "glass half full".

BTW, is it weird and such a loon to actually have that minuscule desire to see how a tornado looks like in real life? Gosh, what is wrong with me? I really don't want this curiosity of mine to get the better of me...

hello pretentious dolls

2010-05-28T22:13:00.001+08:00

It fumes me without fail when a hypocrite tries to display physical self as respectful and above others when their actions are walking on the opposite direction of what they say or how they present themselves. I know that at times, circumstantially, I may present myself in a light that does not please a certain crowd, hence the flow of judgement and criticisms, which really are just winds passing my way, but at the very least I'm not one to act and speak in front of others in a pretty light but when their true self is darker than black.

So to hell with you if you are a hypocrite but tries to direct me to the better side of a place. Remember also that one man's meat is another man's poison. So what you think is good and rightful and the best may not be so for others. If you think you're so righteous, preach your so-called true values and so-called merit teachings to other hypocrite earthlings out there who are too blind to notice your pretentious front.

I may be young but age is just a number and sometimes, having increasing digits as one of your demographic labels don't mean that whatever you have in mind is as solid as rock because even earthquakes can crack the folds of your brains due to increasing level of crap in between the gaps.

the munch monster attacks

2010-05-25T17:43:00.002+08:00

Hunger balls!!!! :(

It sucks to be Erisha when she is sick :(
You wanna know why?

Because unlike the majority of people who lose their appetite and lose a little weight when they are sick, she goes through the opposite. Okay, maybe she has not gain an enormous amount of visible fats here and there, but there are some "peekaboo" extra tires here and there if enough attention is given.

How can this not happen when she just can't stop eating? She is hungry all the time. Let me illustrate a point. Today, she had her regular lunch at a regular lunch time. Hunger was satisfied by a set of beef burger with fries and salad. She could have finished the whole thing if not for the fact that she don't really fancy fries so there were a few bits & pieces of fries leftover. Yet she was still hungry!!! And guess what? An hour later she already felt like she had not eaten lunch. She swear she would have ordered something to eat if she wasn't so short on cash :(

And ermmm... why is she writing as if she's a third party?
Dammit all this hunger blues is making her go crazy.

hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry
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hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry
hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry
hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry hungry
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Dear kind soul with absolutely good heart & attractive physique, as you are reading this, please let me answer your question on how you can actually help this poor little girl here. A simple act of kindness is all there is. Deliver these to me and I shall bless your whole life with happiness and prosperity :D

rasa malaysia

matt and katie dubai

another episode of slap me in the face

2010-05-19T15:13:00.001+08:00

S..I..X---D..A..Y..S

That is how long I've been sick. It's ironic how when one hates pain a lot or has a very low tolerance for pain, pain comes knocking at the door twenty4seven. Crap! Plus the weather is not greeting us all with a lovely 'Hello" anymore these days.
What a way to end my semester break huh?

Well, well, look at me! Being all bitchy and whiny. Cut me some slack!! I'm in pain :(
No, but seriously, I'm getting too whiny these days. I'm almost glad I actually do acknowledge that. Honestly, sometimes I think there's a girl with a mental age below my chronological age on one side of me and another girl with a mental age above my chronological age on the other side where the grass is greener and the sun shines brighter. The former side loves being a bitch and make a fool out of myself by being irrational, irritating and irresponsible while the latter is quite the opposite. Problem is, the latter only gets to the former side after the former side has done her damage. This is totally unacceptable! (i'm being whiny again)

Sigh.

Thankfully, the boyfriend is so sweet during all these sickness & pain. Sorry you gotta put up with the irritating whiny brat that stays in me :P

Gosh, I dislike this whole new semester. I always find myself disliking a new semester whenever it is on. Let's blame the pre-semester blues. How much time has flew by. Third year. Boy, saying it out loud gives me the cold. I think I'm nervous and anxious deep down. What should a girl do at moments like these? When she realizes time is tick-tocking at the back of her and yet she has no clue on which direction to head to?

Even in her blog, she's lost. And look at how much she has been gone from here? I wish I could blog like I used to in the past. Every other day, there's something to talk about. I think I kinda "lost" that already, somewhere between being here and there. I find that when you're at two places at a time, you sorta get "lost" in between and you never really get to be at either places. I gotta find myself back and decide where I want to be at one time. Some of you may probably think this is confusing and you have no idea what I'm talking about. I guess you gotta really be in my shoes to fully understand what I mean.

Heck, I'm happy here and now. I am. But there are just some parts of me, personally, that I gotta pick up and decide where I should appropriately place them.

But what I'm certain is that I will not stop writing. Never in a million life experiences. That's a part of me where it is just right where it belongs :)

Confessions of A Underfunded Trinket Lover

2010-05-09T00:50:00.001+08:00

She stares longingly at the the screen...

The images floating like ghosts from the past, present & future, taunting her...

Fingers start to clench and twiddle at the same time... that huge itch lingers...

courtesy of finding snowflakes

Can you blame a girl for falling in love with pretty little things?

It's more than just a transaction of money...

As she ponder, rage build up in her... meet the enemy: The PriceTag!

courtesy of Mimpi

Hesitantly, she scrolled over to the "X" over on the top right corner

With one final glance of sorrow, she clicked it & everything vanished :(

Miss Me?

2010-04-09T00:12:00.001+08:00

Listening to : Blue Jeans by Jesse James
I.. I'm so fly...
I got a new pair they're so tight...

(this song is the sexxa-bomb man!)

Random shout-out: Nerds who kick-ass are so hot!

OK. So where did I left off?
Oh yes, the marriage thingamajig I mentioned in the previous post.

See, last week there was a lecture on this marriage thing & there was a point where we were all asked to answer a couple of questions like...
"Would you get into a marriage if...

...say your partner's of another race? (why, the kids you make are cuter! HAHAHA) or

...say your partner has a kid? (dude, i'm fine with this but don't go waiting till our honeymoon to spill the beans on some babies running around you know what i'm saying?) or

...say your partner earns more (or less, I can't remember) (i really don't bother larh about this minor thing) or

...your partner's younger/older than you (doesn't matter because mental age is much more important to me, an old dude could be a big annoying baby or a baby could be some wise, charming hot stud... age is just a number) or

...your partner has lower education level than you do?

(at a split second I went: NO WAY MAN!!!! BUT THEN... when I gave it a thought, I realized that although it is important for me to have a partner whose educated & smart, it doesn't mean that if a person has a SPM education level, he or she is a stupid child as compared to a person who has a PhD. There's only so far a certificate can take you and those grades don't prove your intelligence. Heck, if the person can carry himself well, carry a good & interesting and rather intellectual or witty conversation and not shove his "one hundred million I know facts in your face" just to prove he's smart, he's good to go ;-)

So there you go. The things you learn in education institutes can really make you wonder. So don't skip classes kids, I know I'm a bad influence :-P

pre-party stoning

2010-04-01T20:14:00.001+08:00

As I'm writing this post now, I'm caught over at Carmen's crib; waiting for her to dress up for tonight's party.

Sometimes, I can really surprise myself with the things I do or with the decisions I tend to make. I know I'm not making any sense here to anyone of you but I just had to say that out. What??
It's my blog afterall and no matter what, this is the original place where my random rantings took place in the first place. :-)

SO anywayzzz... this post is merely a "to kill time" post as I wait for that babe to get ready. I have to admit that corsets are not fun to sit in for a long time :-(
Seriously?? How did the women back then did it everyday??

Good part is you can't exactly sit with a bad posture because it is even worst, so I guess in a way it's a good thing. To suffer for good posture. ;-)

On another not-so-nonsensical note... *hold that thought for a mo*

I guess I'd finish what I want to talk about in the next post since I gotta bounce right now... let me give you a one word clue on what it would be about: Marriage!

my two cents

2010-03-27T16:03:00.001+08:00

OK! I have a confession to make.

I do read FML at times. Not an avid reader but once in a while when I've got nothing better to do or I want to laugh my head off or be a meanie and see how horrible some people's lives are, I head to FML.

Most of the times when I read those posts, I start to wonder if these things are for real? Because half the time, the confessions made by these anonymous individuals are horribly sad and I go on thinking: "Whoa... that's damn sad man!!"

So just a couple of minutes back I was reading through FML and here are some of the posts that caught my attention:

All from FML

Today, I discovered my soon to be ex-husband had somehow reopened our bank account and gotten us into debt again. The only way I can permanently close the account is if he comes in to the bank with me, which he refuses to do because he wants my credit to be just as bad as his. FML

Today, my boyfriend broke-up with me because the scores of our compatibility on the Love-o-Matic pro app on his iPod were low. FML

Today, I found a really cute earring that someone had lost. Unfortunately, I found it in my boyfriends bed. FML

Today my boyfriend came home from college to visit me. When I picked him up from the train station he says to me, "Wow babe, I am actually excited to see you for once." FML

Today, I set one of my old baby pictures as my profile picture on Facebook. Minutes later my husband commented on it. He said, "I don't think we should have kids." FML

Today, my boyfriend of two years lost his job. He then broke up with me. Why? Because he would "rather be supported by no one than be supported by a woman." FML

O-M-G????
Like are these for real?

Well if that's the case. I've got 3 words for you girls...

Get Over Him!
Seriously. If he acts like an ASS and treats you like SHIT, why bother?

♥THE END♥

Raw Childhood Fears

2010-03-27T11:07:00.001+08:00

She could feel the wind cutting slices on her face as she ran across the hallway. It kept on going. Haunting her from the back. She could feel the chill of it's presence.
Slush...slush... thomp...thomp...slush...slush...thomp...thomp...

The fear was both exhilarating and paralyzing. But beneath all that fear, she could hear her heart speaking:

"Oh NO...NOOOOOOO... please stop this. Stop... Stop following me!!!"

The pain - at the edge of losing her breath, the burning sensation in her chest, the deafening against her ears, the twist in her leg muscles - they all want her to fail.

"I can't... OH my legs... I can't!! Nooooooo!!!! Why is this hall getting psychedelically long with every step I take??"

She could feel it reaching at the back of her.
Slush...slush... thomp...thomp...slush...slush...thomp...thomp...

WHAMP!!

Like a lighting striking out of nowhere, she felt the blow on her head and she fell to the ground...hard. She turn to the her back and there staring straight at her was the ugliest clown with a distorted head and a huge red nose. She screamed. He chuckled and started spinning his bodyless head.

The spinning turned grey and eventually all black-ish. Street lights started advancing towards her. She shut her eyes tight. She was perspiring all over but the irony of it all was that it was cold. Cold wind slapped her on her face. And then it all stopped. The lights. The cold wind. The clown was nowhere to be found.

It was sunset. The streets were empty. Looking around, she realized she was at a deserted gas station. Ignoring the aches that were annoying her legs, she approached the man behind the counter. She wonders where the hell could she possibly be. If this is real?

"Excuse me. Could you please tell me where am I? Where is this?"

The man's back was facing her. He was horridly black all over and a weird stench came from him.

"Excuse me! Can you hear me?"

The man turned around and to her horror, he was faceless but a voice came from within...

"You're in hell, sweetie!"
His hands stretched out to grab her and in his left was a huge knife stained with blood.

All it takes from her was a blink and she screamed at the top of her lungs...

"ARRRRRRRGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!"

*to be continued*

internet stalking

2010-03-26T12:26:00.001+08:00

Quick complaints.

Late sleepless nights but last night's sleep was a piece of a cake : )

The excruciating pain at my shoulders & neck are killing me but has mellowed down a little today : )

Missing my B like mad and there ain't no "but(s)" here because no matter what I will still be missing him every waking hour I have : (

So I woke up today with an itch (not anywhere in particular; note that this is a mental itch) to do some blog-hoppin'/blog-reading/blog-stalking. Gotta admit, made me miss blogging again. I seriously need to get my "blogging mojo" back. Perhaps a visit to the shrink will help? (i tell you, all this psych courses are injecting psych-related effects into my system).

*a moment of silence*

Wait! How the hell did I go from thinking of something that I wanted to talk about to going on about psych and my "blogging mojo"? Another epic case of blogging diarrhea =.=

So anyway, along with the blog-reading and shit like that, I found myself checking out latest updates in LookBook.nu

I think it's time to add vertical stripes to my wardrobe...

What say you, babes? ;-)

Till' I get my 'mojo' back!!!

don't talk. please listen

2010-03-20T17:35:00.001+08:00

Girl: Papa, I'm sorry.

(her face sulking; eyes focused downwards, glancing over at the mess she made)

Girl: I'm sorry. I accidentally. I hit it. My hand. Too fast.

(tears started to form at the corner of her eyes and she tried to suck in the sobs back)

Papa: Baby, come here.

(he stretched his arms wide out and motioned for her to come into his embrace)

Girl: I'm sorry. Glass broke.

(she hugged her Dad tight)

Papa: It's Ok. There there now. It was an accident. It's just a glass of water.

Girl: I fell down. sobs. Leg not good. Floor slippery. Not lying.

Papa: Yes princess. I know. I believe you my little girl. You didn't mean it.

(and he gave her a peck on her cheek)

.......

Girl: I didn't do it! I don't even know where this is coming from, Ma.

Mum: This thing... this talk about all this behavior. Sarah can't be lying. She saw what she saw. The least you could do is stop denying and explain to me why did it happen.

Girl: So you trust Sarah over my words? Just because I'm your daughter, it doesn't mean that everything is my fault.

Mum: Don't you dare turn this around and shift the blame on me, young lady! When are you gonna start admitting your faults?

Girl: When I've actually done something wrong.

(tears of anger rolled down her left cheek)
(she looks over at her Dad for support, but he just kept silent; reading his daily paper)

Mum: sigh... I don't know who are you anymore, dear. Why are you hurting us this way?

(she left the room and walk towards the kitchen)

Girl: (whispers) Why are you guys hurting me this way?

.......

Sometimes, all that kid needs is trust. The kind that her parents had for her when she was young, innocent and truthful.

Sometimes, all that kid needs is her parents. Those that promise to stand by no matter what; against all odds. Especially when others around don't.

some days like today

2010-03-11T22:00:00.001+08:00

Crap! I'm working on something to write but it's only a quarter done and I already feel like clicking the "delete" tab for that post. =(

This is tragic. I've not been updating for quite some time and when I've finally found the urge to, everything I write seems pointless. Shit! Crap! Damn!

Sometimes I wish we could all live in a world where people will all dance around all day and cartoons would sing along while bubbles float in harmony; reflecting rainbow lights =)

Till' I'm in the zone again ~

sweet dreams, lovelies

2010-03-10T01:31:00.001+08:00

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart coming out to you,

Be my eyes when I can't see,
Be my voice when I can't speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,

Hoo, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Throw the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don't let me go
Hold me tight don't you say no
Save the love we have for ever more

Ho, sajna sajna sajna re,
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Sajna sajna sajna re
Hai just sajna sajna sajna re

Save me, when my dream catches fire
(Spare?) me, in my only desire
Wake me, when the pain is over
Take me, now (Take me, now) ...2

When you smile, I smile with you,
When you cry, I feel it too,
You are my soul, my heart coming out to you,

Be my eyes when I can see,
Be my voice when I can speak,
Be my life when darkness creeps on me,

Through the stars that shine so bright,
Cross the sky and cross the night,
Making ways to be right by your side

Hold me close don't let me go
Hold me tight don't you say no
Save the love we have for ever more...

It was...

2010-02-07T19:13:00.001+08:00

It was fuzzy
It was surreal
It was mind blowing
It was crazy
It was nonsensical
It was dramatic
It was beautifully illustrated
It was disturbingly embedded
It was emotionally moving
It was eccentric
It was colorless
It was too fast
It was too short

And most of all, it was only a dream

21 "Must Contaminate Ears With..."

2010-02-04T01:35:00.001+08:00

Listening to:

Breakeven by The Script

21 Guns Remix by Greenday ft American Idiots cast

I've got a semi-confession to make here.

You see, my interest in music is an ever-changing process. One day I hate one song and the next thing you know it, I start to get addicted to it. That my dear, is call the love-hate relationship between a listener and a song.

Then there are times when I fall deeply in love with one song and it ends up in my playlist forever and ever (if such a thing exist, in the first place. You've got to be kidding me right? Falling in love with a song... to that extend?). Oh c'mon, you get the idea!

So, in the light of the 21 Chapters that I've created for myself (which I intend to follow up with), let me share with you 21 artists/bands that I must have in my playlist these days (or else I'll die of deprivation you see... it's that serious!).

My 21 "Must Contaminate Ears With..."

1. Priscilla Ahn - Dream, Wallflower, Rain, Find My Way Back Home, Red Cape, etc...

2. Jason Mraz - I'm Yours, You And I Both, The Remedy, Summer Breeze, Prettiest Friend, If It Kills me, etc...

3. Ne-yo - Closer, Because of You, Mad, Part of The List, Miss Independent, Never Knew I Needed, etc...

4. Muse - Starlight, Supermassive Black Hole, Uprising, Undisclosed Desires, Hysteria, etc...

5. Seabird - Don't You Know You're Beautiful, Falling For You, Rescue, Black & White, Cottonmouth, etc...

6. Sara Bareilles - Love Song, One Sweet Love, Gravity, Fairytale, Bottle it Up, Come Home (ft One Republic), etc...

7. Goo Goo Dolls - Iris, Slide, I Wanna Wake Up Where You Are, Let Love in, etc...

8. Matt Nathanson - Gone, Come On Get Higher, Falling Apart, All We Are, etc...

9. Hey Monday - Candles, Homecoming, How You Love Me Now, 6 Months, etc...

10. Colbie Caillat - It Stops Today, Fallin' For You, You Got Me, Breakthrough, Realize, Bubbly, etc...

11. Safety Suit - Someone Like You, Apology, What If, Stay, Down, Anywhere But Here, etc...

12. Michael Learns To Rock - You Took My Heart Away, Paint My Love, Take Me To Your Heart, Whatever It May Take, etc...

13. Owl City - Fireflies, Meteor Shower, The Saltwater Room, If My Heart Was A House, Vanilla Twilight, etc...

14. The All-American Rejects - I Wanna, Dirty Little Secret, P.S I Love You, Fallin' Apart, Dance Inside, It Ends Tonight, etc...

15. John Mayer - Say, Comfortable, Your Body Is A Wonderland, Gravity, Half of My Heart, Come Back To Bed, etc...

16. Howie Day - Collide, Be There, The Longest Night, She Says, Sorry So Sorry, etc...

17. Metro Station - Kelsey, Shake It, Control, California, Seventeen Forever, etc...

18. Lenka - Knock Knock, The Show, Like A Song, Trouble Is A Friend, Dangerous & Sweet, etc...

19. One Republic - Secrets, All The Right Moves, Apologize, All Fall Down, All We Are, Stop & Stare, Say (All I Need), etc...

20. Dashboard Confessional - Belle of The Boulevard, Stolen, Finishing School, Hands Down, etc...

21. Hellogoodbye - All of Your Love, Here in Your Arms, Shimmy Shimmy Quarter Turn, Dear Jamie...Sincerely Me, When We First Met, etc...

i give you all 21 babeh!

2010-01-31T23:26:00.001+08:00

Listening to: Someone to Save You by One Republic

It Stops Today by Colbie Caillat

The Saltwater Room by Owl City

Ya' know, when I was 15 or 16 or even 18, I was always looking forward to turning the BIG 21. Now that I have, and with so many things that took place from then right up to now, time has allowed everything to change. When I actually turned earlier this week, it was nothing to me. Not in a bad or sad way though. It was merely another year & another birthday. That's it. I mean what is the big deal about it?

Don't know if it's just me or if this happens to others too, but whatever, not important. Well, not anymore that is.

Needless to say, I gotta say A BIG THANK YOU to all those MSN wishes, text messages, emails, calls, Facebook & Twitter messages, hugs & gifts. =D

So do I feel a year older?

Honestly, no. HAHAHA... Age is just a number, honey!

Let's see if I've changed all these 21 years...

Now now dearies, don't laugh. This was taken when I was about a year plus...

And this is obviously the current picture...

Changes? That I'm not sure of but I do know one thing that has not changed while comparing these two photos!

I still love to cam-whore!! LOL. One year old or not, 20 years later, I still carry the same hobby =P

Speaking of changes that never took place & for the sake of this "21 chapters" marathon, I'm gonna kick off with listing 21 changes that never took place...yet!

The 21 Changes That Never Took Place...Yet!

1. I still feel chills in the dark ~ well it's pretty understandable when I was little, but all those years of constant vivid imagination after watching/listening to horrors & the nightmare period a few years ago, it has become a tradition. Sadly.

2. I still can't swim ~ I personally think that water isn't a pretty friend of mine

3. I'm still a poser in photos ~ Nuff said. If you ever get the chance to take a looksee into my photo albums when I was younger, the photos speak for themselves!!

4. I still am so bad in Chinese ~ AND i don't give two hoots!

5. I'm still a girl ~ HAHAHA... I just had to put that in..In case some retards had that thought =P

6. I still hate onions ~ For the love of God, PLEASE stop saying I'm weird for disliking onions & stop making me eat them!!

7. I still don't get to have my own dog ~ mehhh... this will change someday, I know this. 100% confidence level OK!

8. I still cry like a baby ~ shy can? =(... better stop laughing at me or I'll start crying, I tell you.

9. I still love to read ze books ~ although I have to say that my preferences have changed a little bit

10. I'm still am THAT TALL GIRL ~ the only way this is gonna change is if we all start growing shorter as we grow older...

11. I'm still damn 7 bad with numbers ~ it's like my memory is not meant for numbers.. or my cognitive capability for that matter

12. I still love to sleep with lotsa of pillows around me ~ but the number has decreased of course. I used to have more

13. I still have that sarcastic gene in me ~ although the "sting" ain't that awesome anymore... old already can?

14. I can still bitch like one ~ so don't mess with me? =P

15. I still can't whistle if my life depended on it ~ tried so many times - all fail!

16. I still can't snap my fingers ~ no sound it made for every attempt i make - confirmed!

17. I still have not join the dance classes I wanted to take up ~ long story; lazy to explain

18. I still blog! ~ because it gives me a place to ramble, have some peace in mind, keeps me insane & a place for me to vent vent vent

19. I'm still as loud as I can ever be ~ I can't help it larh!! I keep telling myself - calm down, slow that volume down please. But to no avail. Especially when I get provoked, excited or annoyed

20. I'm still as ticklish as ever ~ gahhhhhh... must learn to not be ticklish!!! (NY's resolution! pffftt ya right?)

21. I still contradict myself all the time ~ example: see number 20.. nuff said!

welcome to the dark side, honey

2010-01-31T01:31:00.001+08:00

This little miss of a hundred million confessions has just turn to the dark side.

Hence the black look =P

Just kidding! I'm still so sweet as ever (LOL)

the language of art

2010-01-22T21:53:00.001+08:00

I find myself in my usual graphic browsing & hunting mode again. It's been quite some time since I last did this. I guess this is a sign that my brain either lacks creative inspiration due to over usage or my brain is in a frantic creative drive.

graphic credit: let me be the queen

graphic credit the owner (sorry, I lost the site I took this from)

So true ain't it??

Love is ... ?

2010-01-22T21:00:00.001+08:00

credit high on cloud nine

Love is the unspoken words

Love is the nervous flutters in the middle of your stomach

Love is happiness

Love is pain

Love is confusing and mind-boggling

Love is the joy of having the company

Love is the look you see on the face that makes you smile

Love is hate being upside down

Love is crazy

Love closing your eyes and thinking of nothing but

Love is sharing and peaceful

Love is the tears of misery from missing someone

Love is the tears of joy

Love is hellos and insincere goodbyes

Love is long warm hugs when it's raining

Love is kissing under the umbrella

Love is complicated

Love is the art of compromise

Love is ignorance

Love is the test of patience

Love is foolish

Love is the dream we hope for and the reality we strive for

Love is the course of understanding

Love is the beauty of communication

Love is naive

Love kills

Love heals

Love is the music of our soul

Love is the language that is unwritten, unspoken yet understood

Love is sacrifice

Love is a tease

Love is ... ?

What is love to you?

that's all i have to say for now

2010-01-21T00:44:00.001+08:00

@ photoholic; via omgRAWR

I hate waiting, even if I owe a person my wait.

But it's the only thing I can do.

Which is to wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait & wait

dreams are made of this

2010-01-09T23:01:00.002+08:00

Dream by Priscilla Ahn

I absolutely ♥ this song. Priscilla Ahn has this really sweet & amazing voice, I must say. Have a listen if you don't already know this song! You're bound to love it ;-)

I think the first time I heard this song was back when I watched Disturbia. (lol, that movie reminded me of certain skin-chilling yet L-O-L moments in the cinema)
I was pleased when this song was featured in the movie, Love Happens. Oh by the way, watch that movie if you've not. It's beautiful =)

This song is not just a song. It's one of the songs I hear when I'm bored, when I'm alone, when I'm sad, when I feel lost, & when I'm happy. This song reminds me of all the happy moments. The little things.

This song takes me to another world. This song makes me dream and this song helps me sleep.

Another thing that this song does is that it brings me back to my younger moments.

I'd remember all the fun play-times, moments at the swing, moments where I laugh till I cry and how I loved it when my mum used to braid my hair. HAHA.

And as the title spells, listening to this song brings back memories of my unforgettable dreams and past wishes. Have you ever had childhood dreams?

There's a few I can remember of:
1) Meeting Batman & Superman
I've had this dream of meeting both of these fictional superheroes before & that I would snap a photo of myself alongside the two of them. LOL. To think that I actually think of how it would be if these two were real and that I would meet them!!

2) Being a famous singer
HAHAHAHAHAHA... okay okay. I admit it. This is way too funny to not laugh at. I used to play pretend as a singer or a rockstar. I even have a photo of me to prove it. Using a badminton racket as a guitar and I used to use anything long as a mic. Hey. don't make fun! I take this seriously, for your information...I even put on Dad's old shades for that "superstar" look. =P

3) A fashion designer wannabe
This is one dream I was really serious with at one point. NO JOKE. I used to hunt for various fashion magazines, check out latest season's trends, watch fashion related news & shows. I even have several sketch books where I would doodle and sketch designs on. But sadly, I think the books are all gone by now. Remember times when teachers would ask students one by one in class, what they wish to be when they grew up? Well, it was this point of my life that my answer would confidently be "A Fashion Designer". haha. But then as I grew, I just don't see myself making it as one; especially as a steady career. Plus, parents didn't approve of this dream of mine.

4) Being an international pianist
Yeah. I would always meddle with my cousin's piano whenever I hang around at her place. Even when there isn't one, I used to play imaginary pianos, making those finger gestures on any surfaces I can rest my hands on. I guess it was the stereotype I got used to back then and the fact that pianists in movies or the TV were all pictured as graceful and feminine. HAHAHA... Oh well, that dream got crushed when Dad say no to piano lessons. =(

5) Ballet dancer
That #4 brings me to this. Again, the graceful and feminine part. And I used to be so amazed with how toes are pointed downwards when ballet dancers dance. And I used to associate ballet with swans. Cliche to the max. I know. Anyway, this was nothing big. I'm actually half glad I did not do ballet. Why? It's for me to know, and for you to find out ;-)

Well... well... there are many more where all this came from but let's not clutter this space with all my little bittle past dreams & wishes now.

Before I end this, do take a listen to Priscilla's Red Cape, Wallflower & Rain.

welcome to the happy place

2010-01-09T00:30:00.001+08:00

I know it is rather early to tell but so far, I'm loving 2010. No complains. Fresh start.

I can feel the freshness in the air, babeh! What can I say?
We're not cats; we ain't got 9 lives. We're given one and we should all live it to the fullest.

To ring in the new year, I recently bought myself an iTouch. I must say it is so so so sexy, dressed in red.
Now my playlists goes with me wherever I go. And on that note, here's a couple of music videos I'd like to share. Specifically the songs, not the videos (as and if you see, some of the them aren't official music videos).

Give em' a listen ;-)

i love it when you call by The Feeling

part of the list by Ne-yo

Sajna by AR Rahman

Rain by Priscilla Ahn

Sweet Disposition by The Temper Trap

Apology by Safety Suit

Knock Knock by Lenka

More in the future!! Gnite peeps =D

say hey thoo zelo whan zelo

2009-12-31T00:50:00.001+08:00

Get ready to sat BUHBYE to 2009 peeps!!!

And say, Why Hello 2010!!!!!!!!!!

So, what's your New Year's resolution????

I'm curious as a busy-body-bee-wax... so tell me, tell me, tell me!

ooo.. BTW, have an awesome possum NYE celebration but stay alive kay ;-)

Lotsa love!

I don't feel; I know that...

2009-12-28T00:13:00.001+08:00

Listening to: Broken by Seether ft Amy Lee

I'M SCARED...

That's right. You can use any other words that belong to the same family - afraid, terrified, frightened, petrified, spooked, etc - it doesn't matter. I am all that.

Not because of the dark. Not because of the paranormal. Not because of death.

Certainly not because of any usual trivial objects that I'm usually fearful of.

In fact, it is a thing that is much worst than all of that combined. I've been told that I think too much because of this. I've been told to chill. I get it! There's nothing to be said to someone who doesn't even know what she is afraid of.

Last night, it got me into a really panic state that I was terrified of something that I have absolutely no idea of that in the end - I woke up with dried up wet stains around my eyes. And right at that moment this morning, that first period of consciousness, it hit me. It hit me hard.

It is not something new. It has been there all along. I actually knew what it is that I'm so afraid of and knowing that fact makes it even more frightening because now I am consciously aware that I am extremely afraid of the one thing that would actually inhibit my number one belief in life. It is the enemy of what I truly value in life. So tell me, how do you go about life when you know you're scared of something that goes against what you strongly believe in?

It is the biggest and strongest fear.

And what makes it even worst, is that only I, alone, can overcome that fear.

But where do I start?

And where do I get the courage, huge enough, to fight this fear?

what the fishstick's irony

2009-12-26T03:17:00.001+08:00

Hmmm... lets see.. It's been exactly a week and a day since exams came to an abrupt end. And what have I accomplished so far with the things I've promised myself to do during my holidays?

NONE!

Zilch!

Zero... get it??

JEEEEE... LOHHHHH...

Big fat nothing.

Mum, aren't you proud of me? Your daughter is all say and think but no "DO".

The only thing I did that confirmed has not failed is eating, sleeping, shopping, & chilling.

Oh and don't forget clowning around where people go: "WTH is wrong with this girl? Studying Psych must have taken a toll on her!"

Owh well, I still have roughly about 2 weeks more I guess?

(Damn girl!!! You sure do make great excuses for yourself, don't you?)

Truth be told, the things that I decided I should accomplish aren't that much of a hassle to me. Nor would I dislike doing... no wait.. on second thought, there are a few that I don't actually enjoy doing... like cleaning my room...

...HEY, on another second thought... I DID clean my room!!!! =.=

So, I actually DID something I was suppose to do.

Ironically (but not funny at all to me), I only did the one that I would dislike doing and left behind all the ones that I would actually enjoy doing.

Erisha, you're so awesome for that reason =.=

let magic work it's way [PART 2]

2009-12-24T02:58:00.001+08:00

Listening to: Going All The Way by Perry Farrell
Wallflower by Priscilla Ahn

Photo credit: Rossen Nickolov

"Her dialogue"

"His dialogue"

"Matt's dialogue"

***continuation to PART 1***

"Hey man, do you want this package to go in this bag or the backpack?" goes Matt as he held the package that J's Dad just handed over to him.

"Just put it in the backpack", he went as he put on his jacket and cap.

Matt wrestled with the backpack as he got the package in.

"Thanks man. Hey did you see the red envelope I was just holding a while ago?" he searchingly questioned.

"Errr...nope. What red envelope you're talking about?"

"OH! It's OK. Found it!" he frantically waved the red envelope that he found hidden under the large luggage.

At that moment, her laughter filled the stairway as she make her way up after having a seemingly amusing conversation with his younger sister, Sarah.

"Got everything you need? On second thought, I better help you double check. Orders from your Mum! Haha," she goes on as she starts fumbling with the luggage and the messy stash of clothes on the floor.

"Not to worry...I've went through everything for the third time already."

"What about your passport then? You forget that and you're not going to be flying off today, I tell you!"

"Wouldn't you want that to happen?" he smile teasingly

"I did not..."

"C'mon people! We need to get going already or he'll miss the flight. Let's go! Move it! Move it!"

***At the airport (2 hours later)***

"Hey little T, what are you doing standing here all by yourself?" he questions just as he walks right up to her. She was overlooking the planes that were about to lift off.

"Checking to see if my baby's plane hasn't miraculously shrink from all the overwhelming heat today?" she joked.

Photo credit: ssutanto

"Hah! It's funny how you're still joking about such a thing, huh? I know how that would be an advantage to you. You know deep down I wish the same. They tell you it's hard but they don't seem to tell how hard it is, huh?

"Have you checked in?" she turns away, avoiding his statement.

"Yeap! Everything went well."

***silence***

"Hey..." he puts his hands on her chin and turn her face towards his.

She smiles...
"That's great! You should better get going now," she says as she checks her watch.

She grabs his hand and starts to direct him to the boarding gate.

"Wait a second!" he abruptly stops and pulls her to face him.

"I've something for you. But promise me you won't open it until you're back home OK?" he handed her a red envelope.

She stares at the envelope as she flips it back and forth...

"Promise?"

"Mmmmhmmm..."

He stares at her quizzically.

"If you're thinking what I think you're thinking, stop it right now! I said last week I won't drop a tear and the last thing you'll see of me is my smile," she smiles.

Upon reaching the gate, they bid farewell and so did everyone else. And as true as her last spoken sentence, he boards the plane with an intact vision of her goodbye smile...

... that for some reason, took him a lifetime and yet he can't seem to forget.

Photo credit: tigerjr228

Her thoughts in her head:

"Have you ever find yourself in that situation where you know something just doesn't sit right? The nagging feeling that it is the end of a chapter; pounding so hard on your chest but yet you wish you could be wrong?

So much would have wanted to flow out of your mouth; words that could change things, if only you could find the strength to open your mouth and let them out.

The worst part is?

You want to at least cry the words out but there's no tears and so there's no emotional soothe for your aching heart."

That was that. She lay on her bed at home with her eyes shut. On her right hand, holds the empty red envelope and on the other, holds the napkin that read out: "Let magic work it's way"

*to be continued*

she's ma loony-loon

2009-12-18T23:45:00.001+08:00

I shall confess something tonight...

The truth is...

I have a lunatic twin living inside of me. =)

Apparently, she pops out once in a while to confuse the people around me and start making noise just to get attention (being suppressed for such a long time deep inside me can really do a lot of damage to a personality, you see).

And let me say, out of the hypothetical 10 times that she has surfaced, it would be roughly 4 or 5 out of the 10 times that she might actually do harm to others around her...

So these pass few days, she's been pushing her way out like mad! And finally, she made it successfully the other night.

The result?

Subsequent days of sleepless nights and drainage of excess energy... =(

Either way, it really doesn't matter if it's me or THE OTHER me when all it matters is...

...I CAN TOTALLY BURST OUT ALL THE EXCESS ENERGY IN ME... ESP WHEN IT COMES TO GOING CRAZY WITH SOME FRIENDS!

Like a babe who doesn't feel well but gets cranky when she's hungry which is just so darn funny...

Or a biatch who knows deep down she loves me to bits because I do too... and doesn't mind that my tongue was about to lick her filthy cheeks (LOL)

Or a korean look-alike guy who can't get enough of Paramore!! (yeah Paramore rocks man!!)

And the other dude who seems to enjoy showing off his scars to us (s'ok, gals dig em')

And a tiny little girl who is soooo sick but can still rock the world and still layan me no matter what =P

In short, I heart you guys!

Even when at times you guys can be sooooo darn amusing to the point that I get so speechless...

P/S: The first half of this post may be fictional or not. I leave it up to your imagination.

let magic work it's way [PART 1]

2009-12-15T01:23:00.001+08:00

Listening to: Lady Melody by Tom Frager

Gravity by Sara Bareilles

Dream by Priscilla Ahn

"Her dialogue"

"His dialogue"

"Matt's dialogue"

"Matt-y!!!! MATT-Y!!!" she shouts as she ran up the stairs, straight into her brother's room

"OH! You're here!?" as she saw him standing beside Matt.

"Surprise! =) I just came over to see you but Matt here said you went out for a while so I thought I'd just wait for you"

She smiles as he gave her a gentle squeeze. It's this little things that are the reasons why she can't stop loving him.

"HEY! Love drama coming to an end people! Back to reality. I'm still here alright"

They both chuckled.

"Anyway, I got the tickets for tonight's gig from Greg and I won't accept any excuse from the both of you. So you both better be there and support this event for my sake!"

"Why do I have to go again?"

"Because Mia's going be there, Matt. And I'm your sister. So if you love me the way you always say you do, you'll go!"

"Haha. You know I'll be there, firefly! I was just messing with you"
Matt exits the room.

"And you should be there because...", she points at him

"Because I love you", he interrupted

***the next weekend***

A few minutes of warm, sunny picnic by the lake:

"J, do you think if a fish were to lose it's significant other, it would move on and find another one to share it's remaining life with? Are fishes the same as humans?"

"HAHA... what's with the sudden questions?"

"Just tell me what do you think first, will you?"

"I don't know. I guess. It's not impossible. But circumstances may vary. So would the answer to that question. I mean even humans sometimes don't find another one to share he's remaining life with, no? But some do. It's just a matter of variation"

"That is just so you! Haha. You just can't give me a simple, direct answer without the need to put some thought to it, don't you?"

"I know =) It's what makes me interesting and you know it ;-)"

"OK Mr.Smartie-Pants. Here's another shoot... so how is it that people would know when they've met the right one? You can never know until time tells. I mean, they meet someone, they get together and then when all the sweet dreams come to an end, they part their ways. Then the cycle continues. Why go through all that misery just to find the right one? Why can't everyone just not do that and when THE moment comes, they meet the right one?"

"Well, if you don't meet all the wrong ones, how would you know you've met the right one?"

She shrugs and continues to feed the fishes in the lake...

"Now where's this going, tiger?" he quizzed as he came to her side.

"Just a random thought", she shrugged.

"That little head of yours is going to explode anytime soon if you don't stop thinking randomly", he joked.

"HAHA... This little head here is so powerful, you have no idea how much elaborate and random thoughts it can actually take!"

"Oh really now, tiger?" he asked as he ruffles her hair and caught her in an embrace.

Photo credit: zero5phh

"You know, sometimes you don't have to go on and on and work so hard to get something you want. Sometimes, maybe all you gotta do is wait and let magic work it's way"

"Really now? So now you're into magic huh??" he chuckles.

"I'm serious!"

"OK OK, relax there little tiger! OK, you want serious...let's be serious. I know where you're going with this so let's share a promise and we'll see what happens..."

"Alright. You said so. Now we don't know what the future holds for us both. Either way, what if, someday, circumstance decides that we'd have to be apart... not because we choose to, but because we have to... so we could grow..."

"...and circumstance decides that to grow, we'd have to leave a space...for each other...to see what the future has in store for us...individually..."

"Yeah. Something like that. Now we'd have to have something to represent... like a symbol... a free ticket... to set us lose"

"That was exactly what I was thinking..."

He grabs a napkin from the picnic basket and started to scribble on it with the pen from he took out from his pocket.

"Let magic work it's way", tilting her head to the side as she read the words that were written on it.

"This shall be the free ticket. And we shall keep it over in Matt's old guitar case", he explained as he hold the written napkin in front of her face.

"HAHA. OK! But Matt's old guitar case?"

"Yeah! It's over in the attic anyway. It's not like he uses it anymore. Plus, we won't forget about it being there because the guitar case meant something to us"

And with that last sentence coming out from his mouth, she smiles...

To be continued...

the feel good moments

2009-12-12T00:47:00.001+08:00

I know when it comes to certain aspects in life, I'm not easily pleased.

And then there are the other minor things in life where I get easily pleased.

Have you ever had those "ahhhh" moments? Moments where you feel - everything is alright!

Times when you feel all fuzzy and warm inside. Times where you can't stop smiling because you genuinely feel so happy?

I'm sure you have. Now take a little step to the side and think... have you ever had these moments when you're just completely alone (sane as well). It is like when you wake up in the morning and you know today's gonna be a great day and so you wake up with a smile =)

Photo credit: quadvision

Your thoughts; your perception.

You see a little boy down by the street, skipping along with his ice cream in hand and you feel happy.

Seeing someone else laugh and it makes you happy.

Closing your eyes and listen to the sound of the wind and it makes you happy.

Dancing and twirling to the CD player and it makes you happy

You hear the birds chirping and it makes you happy

Your mind drifts away as you sat at your favorite spot and it makes you feel happy

The smile...

...sometimes it takes just that small little details in life and happiness comes knocking at your door

to bitch drive or not?? hmmm...

2009-12-05T22:00:00.001+08:00

I just had the most random thought today. I'm wondering what kind of a driver would I be?

I mean... today my dad just had one of his so called "road rage" episode again because of a really stupid taxi driver. So it caught me off guard. Would I be such a driver? *lol*

Would I be a bitch driver and every other driver would be my verbal road victim?
I've never actually tried driving that long to find out yet. So far, the only times I've drove, they were all pretty pleasant.

I bet those close to me would definitely vote that I'll be a road bitch for sure, knowing my strong attitude about things. But, hmmm... ya never know, I might be a surprise.

There's only one way to find out!

*Who wants me to drive their car?

psst: I promise I'll be nice...

heartache roadkill

2009-12-03T11:12:00.002+08:00

This recent lack of sleep routine is really driving me nuts.

I'm exhausted but I'm wide awake because I couldn't get back to sleep. Studying is not helping because my brain is too tired to absorb knowledge. Hence, i'm bitching here. RAWR!

It is when I'm cranky, that I start to get annoyed with little things...

Oh boy, imma force myself to get some shut eye as I'm not me right now. =(

On a slightly lighter note, check this out:

So should I get the freaking dress or not?

I love it!!! Man oh man, decisions.

Help me out.

It's 90 bucks

='(

the final thirty

2009-12-02T03:21:00.001+08:00

Listening to:
Secrets by One Republic
The Saltwater Room by Owl City

IT IS officially the last month of 2009. I am stoked at how fast time flies. Really now. It feels like as if it was only yesterday that I washed away 2008. And now it's time to wash away 2009. It's been a bittersweet year but overall, it had been nice.

Now, I'm not wondering what's to offer in 2010 but more on what this last month is going to be like before the new year.

Speaking of which, it has passed my mind that some people say that life has already been written and whatever that happens, are by fate and destiny. The others believe that YOU and I write the stories of our lives and things happen because of how we decide and what actions we take.

So which party are you?

Life is written for you?

or

You write your life?

I'm curious to know... so tell me...

If you'd ask me, I'd say that it is a mysterious mixture of both and it is that mystery that makes life interesting. But that's just my view. It could be wrong, It could be right.

So! Getting back to what I've been talking about, the soon-to-be ending year 2009. As always, I don't make resolutions for every beginning of every year. But I choose to do the opposite.

So this year:

My ongoing struggle with trust issues is still not improving..

I've finally let go =)

People have gone away. New acquaintances are made. And these ongoing process has made me learn new things about people. Some ways, good. Some ways, bad.

I still, personally, despise lizards. They are filthy, disgusting and their existence are simply killing me!!!

I broke a promise I made to myself. Apparently, it's very hard to keep a promise, even when it is just for yourself. So, go figure.

I chopped my hair. I think I still love having long hair. I have a feeling this short-hair phase is not going to last long.

I've had my OHSOGOOD moments when I find myself being able to relate with individuals I've never expected I could with. Sometimes, friends are the best for certain moments but sometimes, all you need is the voice of a stranger or a distant peer.

My temper has gradually decrease and I'm much more patient

There has not been nightmares this year. I guess 2009 is a bless =) If you don't know what I'm talking about, read The girl who dreads past nights...

I continue to hate sleepless nights... nights such as this.

I've came to realized that some people don't deserve my trust and care

I've been lied to

I had my first minor surgery... which scared the hell out of me at first

I lost someone I love a lot. I hope she's at peace. And I know Mum is still grieving. Thinking about it still makes me teary.

I learnt something new during a private counselling session. Smiles!

I had my first ever, proper Japanese cuisine.

I keep wondering when did I suddenly stop driving? Maybe I'm not meant to drive. Maybe I need a driver.

Crazy strangers still won't leave me alone. Please I beg you, leave me alone!

I did not do anything stupid and reckless... I think... as far as I've remembered... as compared to the things I've done last year. This is a record =P

I'm sick of this list already... I can't remember anything now. My decision is to stop here and leave this list hanging and please don't hate me because of it =)

15

2009-11-28T03:41:00.001+08:00

When you're fifteen, you are so naive...

When you're fifteen, all you can think about is your coming "sweet sixteen"...

When you're fifteen, all you care about is if your hair is straight enough, your lips are supple enough, your hot crush is noticing you, your dress gets approved, etc...

When you're fifteen, you have no idea what the real world is like...

...Until now

About Moi

2009-11-26T22:18:00.001+08:00

*updated: 2 Dec 09*

WOAH!

I've finally made my About Me page

I've decided to made it in an elaborated picture list. So this means that it will keep growing as time passes for as long as this blog shall live...

"I" is the face behind this blog.

Chocolates should be everybody's best friend

And watch hot surfer dudes all day long while getting some tan??

C'mon man!

I love dancing =)

I love spring =D

Best moment to get some shut eyes

An the sceneries, don't forget

If my food has these, I'd take them out even if it takes me an hour to do so

My never to be favorite color. Ever. Never

rawr!

Don't laugh at me please

No not with the shower in my mouth

If I'd to choose between sunsets or sunrise, it'd be sunset just because it's so much more beautiful & I'm not a morning person

My to-die-for favorite dishes

Explain to me!

2009-11-25T22:41:00.001+08:00

Guy A: Can I ask you a question?

Guy B: Can I ask you a question?

Guy C: Can I ask you a question?

Guy D: Hey, can I ask you a question?

Guy E: I ask you a question, can?

GUYS

Can you please explain to me WHY do you like to do this everytime you wish to ask a question?

It has always been from a guy no matter what. My girls don't do this. When they want to ask a question, they just get on with it and they ask THE question. Yes the question that they ACTUALLY want to ask!

And I know I'm not the only one who gets this often. I've had girls going on about this. So explain to us girls.

Why can't you guys just ASK the question you really want to ask. Just ask! Why the hell do you need to ask us " Can I ask you a question?"

first?

Is it a guy thing?

I'm not saying it's wrong but it is annoying. Maybe it's a guy thing that us girls just wont't get it.

But the next time a guy asks me this again before he wants to ask me a real question, my answer will most definitely be...

NO!

*i know the dumbass picture of Hercules has nothing to do with this but it's just for some dramatic effect. You should know me by now, I can't stand my post without an illustration*

just like cocaine addiction

2009-11-21T19:25:00.001+08:00

Working out can never get better without the presence of music pumping at the background; especially when you're doing effing crunches that cracks you like nobody's business.

And who says you gotta lift weights or rely on cardio ONLY??

Kickboxing or dance moves are the BOM as well people!!!

Imma make this short and sweet because truth of the matter is I'm plain pissed off right now and I just finished punching the air, so what gives...

A couple of dance moves currently addicted to...

Single Ladies by Beyonce:

Everybody by Rudenko (can I mention that the guy in the video is SMOKIN HAWT?)

Give it up to me by Shakira ft Lil Wayne
(video embedding disabled so click the direct link to view:
YOUTUBE VIDEO

Bad Romance by Lady Gaga

unanswered questions?

2009-11-20T01:47:00.001+08:00

Listening to:

Homecoming by Hey Monday

Central Park by Mr. Hudson

I have a whole bunch of questions here today. Unanswered questions that may well be unanswered for as long as humans shall live.

Why do we always do things we don't want to be doing? Why is it that when it is SO torturing; SO stupid; SO ridiculous; SO disgusting; SO traumatizing; SO hurtful; SO heart-wrenching; we still find ourselves doing it? Going through the things that are causing all those conflicts; all those torture?

They say we humans have a mind of our own but the problem is we don't use it. Instead we use our hearts and end up being in a place we swear we will not find ourselves in.

And so the question remains.

Why do we let ourselves let others torture us?

Why do we humiliate ourselves just to prove a point that we know was not worth proving in the first place?

Why do we let ourselves fall for people we know we should not fall for?

Why do we let others abuse us when we can't take it anymore?

Why do we not open our hearts and tell the truth when we know deep down something good will come of it?

Why do we not share the same feelings we have but choose to live in denial; not knowing what could have been?

Why do we lie to ourselves when we clearly know the truth?

Why do we torture ourselves just to be approved by peers and family?

Why do we seek darkness when light is shining right in front of us?

WHY DO WE NOT LISTEN?

Damn do I have a lot of questions tonight. Too bad they will all remain as questions as the days go by...

P/S: I IS HUNGRY ='(

Xcuse me while I make my big entrance:

2009-11-18T17:49:00.001+08:00

Okay. Okay.
I know I've been on a really long hiatus this time. The blog has been so dead for more than 2 months.

But tell me this, don't you MISS ME already?

C'mon now! Just say it!

You miss me don't you?

...

Alright I shall just shut up now b'cause I bet most of you are so sick of this sudden MIA once in a while. I promise I am back again this time and I'm gonna blog about something. Something juicy, perhaps?

Oh c'mon have some faith in me. When I say I will, it means the time will come. Just be patient ok dearies?

Saviour

2009-09-09T00:35:00.001+08:00

The night is deafening when the silence is listening

And I'm down on my knees, and I know that something is missing.

Because the back of my mind is holding things I'm relying in

But I choose to ignore it because I'm always denying them

I'm a bit of a manic when it's not as I plan it

Cause I start losing my head and then I get up in a panic

Remember when we were kids and always knew when to quit it

Are we denying a crisis or are we scared of admitting it?

I don't want to know

I just want to run to you

And break off the chains, and throw them away

I just want to be so much

And shake off the dust that turned me to rust

Sooner than later, I'll need a savior, I'll need a saviour

It won't ever change if you want it to stay the same

I really hate it but I know it's hard to choose if you're chained

And when it's all you control cause you've got nothing else to hold

You're getting tighter and tighter, it's getting harder to let it go

in case you've been wondering...

2009-07-19T16:21:00.001+08:00

Small talk: I woke up half pass noon today feeling light headed & for the pass 30 minutes before now my stomach has been misbehaving like a bitch...FML

I have nothing witty, bitchy, thought-provoking or even emotionally influencing to write about so this post is going to be pretty much about me and my endless continuation on the quest to accomplish something.

Something you should know about moi is that most of the days, I wake up and in an instant I would go - "Oh I feel like cooking omelets today".
And from there I'll start thinking about googling various fancy omelet recipes and then I would decide to make a whole list of omelet recipes compiled in a book or start a blog/site about food.

And then the next waking hour, I would probably go like this - "Hmm... I should start writing a book!"

And the very next day or two I'll be - "Hey why don't I start dancing classes and join competitions"

Well by know I bet you know the drill. My "quest" for accomplishing something. It has to be something. And everyday, it's a different thing. So, sometimes my room might end up with various leftovers or half done products of my sudden urge to do something one fine day; waiting for the next "spring cleaning" session to take over and bring my room back to life.

Just the other day I had the sudden urge to photograph things. But the closest I got was taking self-shots while I was doing crunches and then deleting them off. So much for capturing little things and starting a photo-blog at Flickr.

Then came yesterday, I was blog-hopping and I ended up in Etsy. Long story short, my buried passion for jewelry making and handmade trinkets have resurfaced. Now, I feel like sewing. (Damn sometimes I irritate myself this way). Now my shopping list has a mini electric sewing machine written on it. Pfft. Speaking of saving up cash, this is not helping one bit. But then again I calmed myself by telling myself that this might turn out to be a successful business which in turn will bring in extra moolah. (smiles to self appraisingly) - "Now where did I chuck my old boxes of ribbons, threads, buttons, beads, glitters and trinkets??"

The question now is whether these fresh urges will...will... will... (damn what's the word again)...prevail??

For all I know I might be start loving the idea of baking cupcakes everyday like how Izzie Stevens did in Grey's. (oh wait a minute, I think that already happened!)

*sigh*
To leave me alone with my thoughts hanging lose - vulnerable and susceptible to sudden, random urges or ideas is the very least - hazardous to my savings account, my room and sometimes my family (esp. my Mom who constantly thinks I just need to sit still and be less imaginative)

Tell me now, have YOU had episodes of sudden urges or "quest" to accomplish something?
(please say yes)

on Good Wife reflection & a few things

2009-07-17T14:32:00.001+08:00

Small talk: Blogger's image upload tool is being a complete biatch to me. I can't seem to upload any images! Being a visual person, I find this very irritating =(

On a shinier note, I am ecstatic! I got the job!!!! Well, it's just a temporary job while I'm on my 7 weeks semester break but, heck, I got it. This means there's something for me to do. This means that I get paid. Oh I can go to sleep joyful tonight. (funny, not like I go to bed sulky the past nights but you get my point) I'll be starting next Monday and the best part is the office is just near my college =D
Although since last Thursday, I've not been complaining much of the sudden bucket full of free time I've had since my last paper ended, it would be really great to work and not to mention I need to cash. (not for shopping OK, I know what you guys are thinking) Actually it has been pretty far from it (complaining I mean). I've been indulging myself with lots of stuff I've not been able to make time for when I was way back being busy with assignments and exams. I even have time to do silly small things just because I have so much time to spare.
Like checking out my blog's analytics the other day and this is what I found out:
My recent traffics were due to this post: How to be a Good Wife!!!
For some reason, people are actually searching this phrase. Hmm... I find it a little interesting that there are a bunch of people searching this and I wonder - for research perhaps? mere fun of reading? Or someone's been a horribel wife and have decided to depend on guides like this perhaps? One word - INTERESTING.
The last time I got something like this was when I blogged about CLEO's Eligible Bachelors and the trip I had to the doctor that resulted in my consumption of honey which - fyi - helps boost sex life (a fact I came across when I was googling about the goodness of honey).
It really is interesting how one can have a slight knowledge of what others are looking up in Google / internet by random blogging and vice versa. (I should make a test out of this and start thinking of something else to blog about since I have so much spare time)
Right. There we are. LMC is signing off now coz she wants to head over to her fashion blog and update there.

Railway parasites

2009-07-15T22:42:00.001+08:00

Small talk: Shopping spree is infectious. Interviews are dull. I cannot stress how much i loathe numbers this week and I am yet again sick of the train. Today's such a drag I practically cleaned my entire room and had everything rearranged, reorganized, grouped and color coordinated. I am amazed myself by what I did today. it will not last long for sure...

Now it has been quite a number of years that I've been taking the KTM train, KL monorail and Putra LRT. Although my usuals wouldn't be referred to as an everyday thing but it is frequent enough to notice several intolerable behaviors.

One that never fails to take place is the existence of "railway parasites". I coined this term in reference to passengers who are ignorant when it comes to other passengers and they always do at least one of these: A) hug the pole (nevermind whether they're sweating like Niagra fall; B) lean on the pole (doesn't matter with their entire back/butt/sides/front); C) not holding the pole but simply stand right in front of the pole giving no access to other passengers.

It's really fine when there's no one around that needs the pole for stability but when there are others who really need the poles, it is really thought provoking as to why these railway parasites are simply so ignorant or blind. Perhaps they have this innate fear that if they merely hold the pole with one hand they might fall and break their necks. Shrugs. Who am I to know right?

Anyway, if you're one of those railway parasites, come a little closer. I'm in a such a giving mood right now so let me share some secrets I have that could be rather useful in case miraculously all poles in the train mysteriously disappear (we should get prepared shouldn't we?) I bet that this pointers would be way more effective if not more interesting than what you parasites have already been doing to annoy others.

**1)
Now instead of using your energy to hug a pole tight or have your weigh all over the pole like you own it, why not stock up on some cement or maybe a super super glue - make sure there's plenty to soak you up. Go ahead to either end or corner of the train and glue yourself to the corners. Doesn't matter if it's the walls or the floor of the cubicle.
If you want to glue yourself to the ceiling, that would be creative as well!

2)
Another thing you could do is lay flat on the floor (if you want to additionally glue yourself to the floor - that would be creative!) and then let other passengers board the train and stand on your (bear in mind to let as many people as possible) and their accumulated weight will definitely hold you down so you won't fly or drop at all.

3)
OR you could purchase dozens of clear plastic wrappers (ya know the ones used to wrap up chilled or packed food at the supermarket or those that are used at home to sealed extra food; the ones that are stretchable, clear and would stick to the surface of a container containing the food. Then, just get any kind person (I'm sure someone would be willing to) just wrap you entirely to the pole. Every inch of you. Oh and make sure to stretch your arms out so others can hold on to you for support; in replacement of the pole.

Well, I guess that's about it. I'm out of ideas and I'm tired. But if anyone who has thought of anything else better than my ideas, why not share your secrets here so these pesky railway parasites can decide on the most creative way to "embed" themselves to the train so they don't have to hug or wrap their entire arms and body towards poles as if they own them poles. ;-)

What is wrong with me?

2009-07-06T16:46:00.001+08:00

social psych social psych social psych...
There was this box right in the middle of nowhere and it is filled with a bunch of grey shreds of paper filled with thousands of scribbles...and then everything became so hazy as the wind blew up all the sand from the ground that supported the box - which I'm not even sure if it was pressed or pulled by gravity.
All this studying is making me go nuts. I'll be back once I get myself together. :-S

Things To Do Before i Die - Revisited

2009-06-25T21:45:00.001+08:00

For those of you who have read and followed this blog since I was just a newbie might have read this particular post before - titled - Things To Do Before I Die...

If you've not, here goes: CLICK HERE (click lar!!!! don't be so lazy alright... I purposely link this post here... )

Actually I don't really care if you click the link or not... no wait! I do care! So just click it. Won't die. (damn am I annoying this way but please pardon me. I just had a childish moment today at the park. It's still lingering deep down)

Ok moving on. The purpose of me linking that post is because this post is going to be...

THINGS TO DO BEFORE I DIE (revisited)

Plus I just realized something. I know we won't know when we'll die and we might die young. Just don't think too far from where we are right now and let's just focus being positive - which is that we will die when we're old and wrinkly and not anytime soon.

Now from that list (see I told you to click and read the link because now you'll be so lost), I've came across a couple of things that I doubt I will ever overcome the fear and do it. Even as I say this - it proves! Because I don't even have the confidence to thing the other way round. Pfftt.

Ok so anyway, what are the things on that list I was referring to???

THESE:

~Get the tattoo that I've always wanted @ my ankle
~Ride a big rollercoaster that rates at least 3 on a 1-5 scale (LOL i'm a coward this way)
~Learn to float & swim (yeah I can't you can stop laughing at me already)

Yes yes... say whatever you want to say. I know I'm a whim. I've never actually rode on an actual rollercoaster...ever. Well not yet. But I think I will never. If you (anyone of you) is able to make me do it, you're damn great!

And then I also came to realized that I left a few things from the list as well. (if you can't stand lists, just layan me for a while lar... I've been diagnosed with some random disease... I need attention =P)

Here goes:

~ To learn photography (don't know how to explain this but there's just a simple kind of wonder when I capture beautiful moments & I love photos that don't make sense at all)
~ To start the first chapter of a book... even if i don't finish it... all that matters is to actually start on it
~ To publish an article
~ To host a bazaar
~ To learn to watch a game without falling asleep or wanting to fall asleep
~ To buy something I really want with my own hard earn money
~ To go to Disneyland
~ To take a photo with a snake (oh boy where did this come from??)
~ To adopt a child
~ To invest in a restaurant

And the list shall stop here... reason why? Because I just feel so random today... must be those childish moments in the park this evening.

The Last Kiss

2009-06-20T23:08:00.001+08:00

You don't know how
You don't know when
You don't know why

But you find the both of you falling from a tree
Landing hard on the dry hard ground
You both look at each other - questioning
And got the same answer - yes it hurts
But you both never expected so much pain could come from falling from a tree
Like every part of you is aching
Every bone - brittle and breaking down
Every muscle - tearing
Every skin - shredding

There's so much to say; so much to do
But every word feels so heavy - and so you both don't even want to try
Afraid that saying anything at all will tear your jaws apart

So you let the moment be that way
The both of you lying down on the dry hard ground - unmoved
Everything and everywhere starts to swell up
Every joint starts to strain - like you're being rip apart
Every ache, every pinch, every prick - gets worst
And yet words just pass through as thoughts
Neither the both of you mention a word, made a gesture, move a muscle...

Tree leaves start falling down like snow
Looking into each others' eyes - you both know it's time
Or is it?

And just as you both start to grab each other in the arms despite all odds,
A strong force pulls the both of you apart
And as you both brutally crawl towards each other,
Tears start to feel like broken glasses gliding down your cheeks
The last excruciating pain but it's too late

The final moment where you both almost touch each other,
There it was a painful sound
Bones break
Muscles tear
Skin shred
And as you open your eye, you both find the other is gone
And you remember the last kiss you had, the last embrace, the final touch...
Yes the last kiss and it's no longer there

Till you reach the day you lose "the other", you will never fully grasp that pain.
Don't take things for granted because then when you reach that day, it's too late to regret it all...

*to everyone I care & love*

the little girl who dreads past nights

2009-06-16T02:16:00.001+08:00

I'm having difficulty sleeping tonight. AGAIN!

What is it with me? Am I damned to have sleepless nights this year?

And I hate it when this happens. You know why?

Let me tell you a story of a little girl.

"Many years back there was a little girl has a heart as fragile as a chicken's. There was a period of time where she dreads going to bed at night because of the series of repeated or continuous nightmares she had to endure night after night. Sometimes as hazy as a tiny rainbow in the sky yet sometimes as vivid as the bright full moon.

And then there was a time when she fell sick and even the Doctor couldn't find a cure. Those dreadful long nights - they eventually dissappear but visions and memories remain"

That little girl was me.

So now you know why I hate sleepless nights...

Because those silent, lonely moments trigger my thoughts and those memories resurface.

Being me, I hate taking sleeping pills so I don't rely on them. Hence, the blogging of this post. Lately, I've had numerous encounters of either really annoying, disturbing, dreadful and/or bewildered moments. I know every once in a while, everyone has their own pet peeves but when it goes beyond that, I really have nothing to say.

It's bad enough that I have to endure crazy sleepless nights, I don't need to deal with:

1) People who are rude to old folks

2) People who don't respect women

3) People who inconsiderately smoke right in my face while I'm busy having my breakfast/lunch/tea/dinner/supper, etc

4) People who accidentally knock into me/step on my foot/hit me/shove me but don't have the common sense to say sorry.

5) People who cut queues (esp the ones I'm in)

6) People who shove others to get on the bus/train (esp the train)

7) People who deliberately speak to me in Chinese just because they think I'm Chinese (doesn't matter if I'm actually Chinese) and stare at me like a have 3 eyes when I say I can't speak Chinese. Screw u!

8) People who keep going on about me being a Chinese and can't speak Chinese and that I should know how to speak Chinese. It's like you're saying to a blind that he/she has eyes and that he/she should be able to see. Screw u!

9) People who don't give a damn if a guy curse but it it's a girl, it's "O-M-G how can u curse??"

10) People who shake their legs in the cinema, hall or auditorium (esp when those people sit behind me). I really, truly am not looking for a vibrating massage chair, TQ.

11) People who don't know me & and I don't know them, and they start adding me in Facebook or Myspace or on MSN.

12) People who have bad BO but don't use deodorant.

13) People who day dream at the traffic light.

14) People who ...

I don't feel like going on because I think it's time for me to go to sleep now. *YAWN*

How To Be A Good Wife...

2009-06-15T20:45:00.001+08:00

Let's sidetrack a little bit for a while...

Gosh it's been such a long time that I've not logged into this blog of mine to post something. Short semesters are such a rush!

I'm glad right now because I've finished my mid terms and I successfully did my presentation today. Just a few minor assignments left & a big presentation coming before finals (which I must say is hopeful since we're given a week for study break) wheee...

Righto! Now we head back to what's on the menu today:

How To Be A Good Wife
WARNING!
*this might be offensive, stay away if you think you can't handle this piece of shit*

To all wives: If you think you're doing a fine job as a wife right now... you might want to think again!

To all wives to be: If you think you'll have no doubts what-so-ever that you'll be a shitty wife, you might want to reconsider!

See I saw this last week when I was studying for my Social Psych's paper when it caught my attention. To make things short & sweet, I was shocked & by far fumed.

What the biscuit am I talking about?

Well let me introduce to you the The Good Wife's Guide (promising you an excellent guarantee that you'll turn out to be the best of the best, your husband will love you "till death do us part" sense)

Have dinner ready. Plan ahead, even the night before, to have a delicious meal ready on time for his return. This is a way of letting him know that you have be thinking about him and are concerned about his needs. Most men are hungry when they get home and the prospect of a good meal is part of the warm welcome needed.
Prepare yourself. Take 15 minutes to rest so you'll be refreshed when he arrives. Touch up your make-up, put a ribbon in your hair and be fresh-looking. He has just been with a lot of work-weary people.
Be a little gay and a little more interesting for him. His boring day may need a lift and one of your duties is to provide it.
Clear away the clutter. Make one last trip through the main part of the house just before your husband arrives. Run a dustcloth over the tables.
During the cooler months of the year you should prepare and light a fire for him to unwind by. Your husband will feel he has reached a haven of rest and order, and it will give you a lift too. After all, catering to his comfort will provide you with immense personal satisfaction.
Minimize all noise. At the time of his arrival, eliminate all noise of the washer, dryer or vacuum. Encourage the children to be quiet.
Be happy to see him.
Greet him with a warm smile and show sincerity in your desire to please him.
Listen to him. You may have a dozen important things to tell him, but the moment of his arrival is not the time. Let him talk first - remember, his topics of conversation are more important than yours.
Don't greet him with complaints and problems.
Don't complain if he's late for dinner or even if he stays out all night. Count this as minor compared to what he might have gone through at work.
Make him comfortable. Have him lean back in a comfortable chair or lie him down in the bedroom. Have a cool or warm drink ready for him.
Arrange his pillow and offer to take off his shoes. Speak in a low, soothing and pleasant voice.
Don't ask him questions about his actions or question his judgment or integrity. Remember, he is the master of the house and as such will always exercise his will with fairness and truthfulness. You have no right to question him.
A good wife always knows her place.

Oh yes! So now do you know what you're not doing as a "good wife"??

Sigh... it's a good thing this bunch of stereotypical statements don't come by much anymore.
But why oh why isn't there A Good Husband's Guide?

Ohh wait I think I know why!

But I'm not telling. I want to hear from all of you why do you think so?

*if you don't already know, I'm Little Miss Sarcastic today ;-)*

itch itch little pants

2009-06-06T22:41:00.002+08:00

Damn this is not good. My neck has been doomed with two huge red lines on each side and they itch like super duper effin nonsense!!!!

SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!

I don't scratch and it's red. I scratch and it's red. I guess the best part is that there's no growth or anything popping out at the areas. It's just red and itchy.

So itchy that I wanna rip my neck out.
Has anyone had this before???
Someone help me pls =(

i'll make them guys sigh with ecstacy

2009-06-03T20:40:00.001+08:00

Today I feel like being generous to the guys. The males of the world. The men of the Earth.

Oooh and not forgetting those females that love females too =)

I present to you *jeng jeng jeng*

A) Lil Miss Confession's List of Hot Hollywood Female Celebrities:
Jessica Biel - Has hot talent and a hot personality

Charlize Theron - don't you want her Trapped in your heart?

Hayden Panettiere - who wants a hot Heroes?

Beyonce Knowles - If you were a boy, you'd be a hot one!

Taylor Swift - those country men loves you too =)

Eliza Dushku - reason why we all love Dollhouse

Megan Fox - c'mon, admit it most of you guys watch love Transformers because she's one of the reasons why...

Blake Lively - hot name. Anyone who loves gossips would love to here more gossips about you

Eva Longoria - she may be small, but she is one hot housewife

Leighton Meester - Not only can this girl make a hot bitch on tv, she has a hot voice too... check out Good Girls Go Bad song!

Angelina Jolie - although she is weirdly skinny now, her roles on the silver screens are totally hot ;-)

B) Lil Miss Confession's Beautiful Hollywood Female Celebrities:

Scarlet Johansson - what can I say? A beautifully talented actress

Christina Aguilera - I am beautiful no matter what they say...

Anne Hathaway - Just because you were "the" Mia Thermapolis in The Princess Diaries who used to be (not pretty) doesnt mean you;re not beautiful...

Aishwarya Rai - Bollywood is beautiful babe =D

Halle Berry - One beautiful Bond girl!

Katherine Heigl - even as a cancer patient cum doctor, Heigl makes a hot one at both!

Jessica Alba - bangs are beautiful too you know?

Gwen Stefani - Beautiful Mummy who has beautiful talent and a beautiful boy =)

Aliens vs. XY

2009-05-24T22:09:00.001+08:00

I think guys are like the term aliens...

Weird, unknown, different...

What do you think?

~END~

desperate with a budget

2009-05-22T11:45:00.001+08:00

There are currently hundreds & millions of thoughts going across my mind right now. It has always been so for a couple of days. So many things to do. So many things to keep track off. *sigh*

I hate short semesters. Time runs out faster and work-time-overload comes into place.
Not to mention that I have to get an intern or a job for this coming semester break. I have to. So frustrating. And I hope I'll be able to get a good one.

Not only will I gain a lot of the wanted and needed experience for my future but also one that provides a rather well pay so I can finally buy a new handphone. The old one now sucks balls.
Irritating little red gadget doesn't want to function properly when I need it the most. Speaking of which, what brand or model should I get??

I'm still in the indecisive mode. I can't decide. I need one that is really reliable.

Plus, speaking of extra income, I really need to go shop for more appropriate attires for formal or work. Limited is an issue. If I were to go to work, I can't go around wearing the same old skirt or pants for 3 days in a row. Alternating them is still a NO-NO!

And I need more jeans. Skinnies is what I need. Why does everything have to cost so much???
Nevermind, let's just blame it on economy.

Yes I need a washout or a grey one. And then a white one. And probably a maroon. C'mon girls!!! I need your help. Where can I buy good skinnies & work attire that won't cost a bomb in my pocket???

*note the multiple question marks, I'm desperate*

Don't produce if you don't care

2009-05-19T21:00:00.001+08:00

I know that we humans are capable of doing anything if we put our minds to it.

Heck, some people can even go around bashing their 2 month old child or use their own biological children as sex slaves. We all know by now that the worst one can ever do to their own children is to murder them a cold, bloody murder or even rape their own child. Like I said, anything is possible with us humans that it really isn't something shocking anymore. (it used to be)

Although all that can seem to be merely inhumane and possibly show how much a lunatic and sick person we all can portray ourselves to the world, it still doesn't show that anything remotely less cruel than all those act mentioned above are minor in comparison.

Like when you freely leave your children to roam around on the streets without protection and supervision or like when you bring your little ones on the motorcycle without a helmet. I just don't understand why some parents can be so ignorant as to let their 2 year old or 5 year old to sit on the motorcycle without any head protection while the parents were having helmets on for themselves.

How sure are you that you're able to securely maintain your child's safety while riding on the motorcycle without a helmet? Are you 100% positive about that? 200%? You're sure you can maneuver the motorcycle safely all the time?
But what about other drivers on the road? How sure are you that they will not hit your motorcycle?
How sure are you that the next incoming car would not suddenly lose control and hit you - causing your child (who has a higher risk of losing his or her life because there was an absence of proper head gear and protection) to have a lower risk of injury from the hit or accident?

If you think that you will be lucky all the time (or even your child), you're wrong because that's not how life function. Anything can happen. Anything is possible.

I may not be a parent but I seriously don't understand how someone who is one could just suffer the ups and downs of 9 months pregnancy and not protect their child?
All those days nurturing your child and you won't spare some money for some proper head gear or protection?
Damn you people who are guilty as charged. How can you let such adorable kids travel on the verge of a possibility in losing their lives.

If you can't afford to love and care for your children, then you should consider stop producing!

Oh what is that??

You can't live without sex but you can live with the death of your little ones? pffffttt...

~END~

Confessions of A Bikini-clad Girl by The Pool

2009-05-16T12:08:00.001+08:00

Listening to:
Kiss Me Through The Phone by Soulja Boy

Ahhh... it might have been the current weather lately *i guess* that made my friends and I so keen to go for a dip in the pool. *we're even thinking of going again*

But for what it's worth, let me come clean. I don't swim. Zilch. I don't know how to swim. I've never learn before. I just enjoy dipping in the pool since the weather is so so so so HOT everyday. Even when it's raining. OMG! Some days it's super duper hot I think the world is going to melt into some blue/green cheese that's splattered somewhere in the universe and we'll all be the melting little seasonings and essential ingredients to make it a very cheesie meal. HAHA.

*me and my imaginations!*

Ok enough about the heat and the world being a cheese. Too much indulgence over my over-active imagination can be detrimental to your health. =P

*hahahha... Steph took this shot off me being dissatisfied with the pancakes i had for my breakfast on that day*

*some random shots... I just love to do so... maybe one day I'll take up photography =P*
see I'm so random & indecisive that way, I always come up with things our of the blue that I think I would love to do...

ahhh it was blazing hot but the pool water's always cold...
see those coconut trees. Made me crave for some coconut drink on such a hot weather. I miss the good ol times where I always had coconut to quench my thirst when I was younger because my grandma's place had coconut trees.

me relaxing away from the sun while I took random shots of the girls and other things as well.
* no that's not my legs...*

*hahaha this one shot is so obvious that I was pretending. really failed*

And then right after all that swimming and dipping, we sweat our butts out in the sauna. It was the best. After the sauna, you can really feel so refreshed. But then the heat was unbearable, plus the heat from the weather.

Finally, lunch.

Now I want to go again. it'll be so nice to.

It's times like these that you just think of all the random things you want to do. Like for me, I have sudden urges to go for picnics ( I know where!!! DPC!!! But wait till the weather is not so terrible), dipping in the waterfalls (the best lar!!! the water is super duper cold) or like going for walks just for the nothing before the sun sets. It's little things like these that don't cost much but can be really wonderfull.

First! MY FOOT

2009-05-07T22:00:00.001+08:00

I'm annoyed.
There's a perfect explanation as to why I'm annoyed but I don't know why it got me this annoyed that I just had to blog about it!!

Why am I this annoyed??
Because I just can't get into my head why people (not many but still a rather huge chunk of the world'd population who knows how to connect on to the internet) would leave such a comment:

I'M FIRST!

What is the rationale behind this?!?

Do you win the first prize for this?? What kind of a comment is this?
I think we all pretty much know for sure that you're the first because well, duh!, your comment is the first to appear for that particular post if you would have actually said something meaningful/wise/witty/funny/interesting/intelligent/or even remotely related to the topic of the post.

AND IT DOESNT END HERE!
Oh no it doesn't.

You wanna know what's even more annoying and worst than that comment above?

it's this:

FIRST!

Yeah and that's it. One word with a distinctive "!" and that's all there is.
What is it that I hear you say to defend yourself??
WHAT??

Oh did the blogger actually asked you whether the first picture was better than the second? Or that the first (insert whatever it is) is better than the second?
Wait I don't remember reading anything of such in the post but let me just check first cause I might be wrong (you never know when your head can actually play games with you)

*scrolls up and scan*
NOPE! Nothing of that sort just as I've remembered it to be. So what the heck was that for? Is there a competition going on where the first to comment on something with the words like "first!" or "i'm first" or "yay! first!" is the grand prize winner of some sort??

Gee.. how come I didn't know about this. And to top it off I see this a couple of times already at different blogs or sites; be it a post or a video (it doesn't really matter). Like who cares if you're the first. Who cares??? Nobody but the person who commented the word.

Take my advice - you'll do wonders. If you wanna leave a comment, say something. Something worth saying. Even if you're a regular friend blogger and you wanted to drop by for a day's read and say hello... you can just comment with a greeting at least and say something like...like:

HEY! MORNING! JUST HERE TO VISIT FOR THE DAY. MY, I AGREE WITH WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY. THAT PIECE OF MEAT IN THAT PHOTO OF YOURS IS REALLY LOOKING YUMMY I MUST SAY... BLA BLA BLA...

Ya anything of that sort. Or share a thought or compliment about the issue. The list goes on. Boy I tell you, some people are just so...

L.A.M.E

Wait did I just say the four letter word??
Yeah I did *smug face*

Damn I have no idea why I'm getting so worked up on this little issue. Boy am I annoyed! Time to go annoy other people by dropping by random blogs with the latest commentless post and add a comment with the word : FIRST!

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psst: no i'm just kidding, i'm not that lame.

"no guys want me coz I'm too fat & short"

2009-05-05T17:26:00.003+08:00

Listening to:
The Show by Lenka
What Sarah Said by Death Cab for Cutie

AND THAT is EXACTLY what a girl who is the daughter of my parents' neighbors' neighbor's neighbor's daughter said to her Mum.

I'm sure a miniscule dialogue would have took place between both the Mum and The Girl, but I was pretty stunned or perhaps speechless to have heard that.
Well if you have to know how i knew about it, the father of the girl came to have a little chit-chat with my parents the other day and she spilled the beans. (See, this goes to show you should never trust your parents and tell them something like this if you wouldn't want it spreading out)

No no I'm not mentioning names at all. She shall remain anonymous. Though I have to say it is pretty pathetic to think in such a way. (I've seen her and she is not that short nor is she even remotely fat - maybe slightly more than healthy and a little plump but she has a pretty normal height)

Guess it's all the peer pressure, media pressure and even her lack of self-esteem. To me I think that it is really pathetic to say such a thing about yourself. Fat or freaking skinny thin, everyone should learn to love and appreciate what you are. Love your body. Be confident in it. If you don't and you can't, well make a change. Be healthy then and stay fit. Control what you eat but still eat healthily. Doesn't matter if you're fat or thin - this goes for both.

Plus, who says there's such thing about having no boys wanting you if you're fat and short. There are plenty of fat, thin, short & tall girls out there. And every guy digs different things. Some guys like short girl, some like tall.
If you're one of those that's really insecure about being fat and short - well news flash for you babe, it ain't that nice being awwfully skinny and tall. I know this because I'm tall and I used to be really skinny and being too skinny wasn't that great either. So everything has it's ups and downs. So love yourself and your body because you ain't gonna feel fully satisfied no matter what. Plus, you'll end up all old and wrinkly and frail and dead when the time comes because that's the nature of life no matter how you look like now.

LOVE YOUR BODY
coz there's more to you then just how you look =D

Confessions Of A Nudist

2009-04-30T22:14:00.001+08:00

Listening to:
Stripper by Soho Dolls

Have you ever find yourself in a situation - a situation where you never felt comfortable?? A place where you know you don't fit in and you will never fit in. All you look for is to break free - spread your wings and fly. Be who you really are.

In you own comfort and skin, you are who you are. The person who was born to be that person - the one you see as you stare into the mirror right now.

I - yes I, find comfort in my own skin. Nothing to cover it up. Just me, I and my skin. The lovely feeling of the gentle breeze against my shoulder. The freedom burning from within. So intense, you want to stay that way forever.

Besides, aren't we all born this way. Nothing but our bare skin that protects our inner being.

Being able to let loose. Having to not decide what to put on every single day. Colors that go along. Colors that don't. Styles that fit you. Styles that don't. So many decisions, so little time.

Every touch feels much more delicate. Ever so real. Much more real than when you're protected. As you embrace objects of cold and warmth, you be one with it.

Love your skin as I love mine. Be one with your skin.

Be one with yourself. Feel free. Br free.

The ends of your soft long hair as it touches the small back of your back. Ticklish. Bare.

And to think that this is the end...

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Click after the jump to view more explicit photos..let your imagination run wild...

YOU'RE FOOLED PERVERT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHA... Nudist my foot...
Since I missed April's fool on the 1st of April & since today is the last day of April this year, I dedicate this post to all of you ;-)

*oh don't bullshit yourself that you weren't fooled. or perhaps coming close to*

P/S: those pictures aren't mine...in case you still haven't noticed *wink*

BTW, I'll be away for tomorrow but I'll be back on Sunday. Don't miss me ya'll

MWUAHHH!

"Kawaii Boys"

2009-04-04T17:23:00.001+08:00

Can you believe it?
I just got up from tossing and turning around on the bed because my cramps hurt like hell. Seriously!
It feels like as if an elephant is literally trying to pop out of me. Sheesh! Sometimes I wish I'm a guy.

But then again if I were to be a guy, I'll miss out on all the fun doing what girls do. HAHA.
Speaking of which, a friend showed me a video yesterday on Youtube. Before I came across these videos, I've never thought there were such game shows. But seriously, only the Jap can think of such weird games shows for entertainment. If you ever came across any on TV, you'll get what I mean.

So anyhoo, this game show is basically about Jap high school boys (that young) dressing up and looking like "kawaii" Jap girls. Now you get me?

I think these boys should have been born as girls.
But then already there are so many girls out there and so little guys...
Gosh. You people would just have to watch these videos fr yourself.

lil miss confession

changing lanes

A Magnolia Sherbet A Day, Drives Us Closer, Each Day!

Anticipation

c'est la vie

What's your problem, HATERS?

Trick or Treat

i think i made a mistake of writing this post

she who is the tough cookie that got moist

Sex Sells

LMC's Guide To Sem-Break Holidays!

Have you had a conversation with a machine?

A Malaysian's ludicrous comment

Reasons you should go vacation in Abu Dhabi

shake that misery of a company of yours and put on the awesome shirt

Some Days...

"Things That'll Irritate Me W/o Fail"

other side

post it love

wave your flag, but don't shove it in my face every nanosecond you've got

depth is not by length

a tornado attack of thoughts

hello pretentious dolls

the munch monster attacks

another episode of slap me in the face

Confessions of A Underfunded Trinket Lover

Miss Me?

pre-party stoning

my two cents

Raw Childhood Fears

internet stalking

don't talk. please listen

some days like today

sweet dreams, lovelies

It was...

21 "Must Contaminate Ears With..."

i give you all 21 babeh!

welcome to the dark side, honey

the language of art

Love is ... ?

that's all i have to say for now

dreams are made of this

welcome to the happy place

say hey thoo zelo whan zelo

I don't feel; I know that...

what the fishstick's irony

let magic work it's way [PART 2]

she's ma loony-loon

let magic work it's way [PART 1]

the feel good moments

to bitch drive or not?? hmmm...

heartache roadkill

the final thirty

15

About Moi

Explain to me!

just like cocaine addiction

unanswered questions?

Xcuse me while I make my big entrance:

Saviour

in case you've been wondering...

on Good Wife reflection & a few things

Railway parasites

What is wrong with me?

Things To Do Before i Die - Revisited

The Last Kiss

the little girl who dreads past nights

How To Be A Good Wife...

itch itch little pants

i'll make them guys sigh with ecstacy

Aliens vs. XY

desperate with a budget

Don't produce if you don't care

Confessions of A Bikini-clad Girl by The Pool

First! *MY FOOT*

"no guys want me coz I'm too fat & short"

Confessions Of A Nudist

"Kawaii Boys"

First! MY FOOT